Old Times

I sit in my sister room.
Late, around ten thirty.
I scroll through my old facebook pictures.
I saw old pictures of my self.
And as they went down, I saw I was cuter.
Looks don't matter to me.
But I am very self-conscious and with mild trust issues.
My feel like I'm going to cry.
My world wide friends don't  help much.
And my friends close by don't help at all.
When I was younger I was a happy cheerful girl.
I'd make friends real easy and didn't swear like a sailor.
What changed?
Now I can't make a friend without fighting with them, and I'm depressed every day.
I can't stop swearing.
What happened to me!
When I was younger I didn't care what people thought.
It doesn't have anything to do with school or being a teen.
I had fun when I was a kid.
I geeked out less about video games and anime.
What happened!
I hate my younger self!
If I had a choice I'd go back and kill my self.
In the goriest way possible!
I can't stand my younger self!
Why couldn't I have died.
This is all my fault, as a child.
Why'd I change.
I can't take it...
I CAN'T TAKE THE LYING AND THE PAIN ANYMORE!!!