Love Changes

From the first moment that I laid my eyes on you, I knew I've seen you before..
But I never thought that I would ever see you again.

I wanted to ask you what you were doing in my dreams all of my life, because I never for one moment believed that you were anything more than a mere fantasy.

I wanted to build a window on the side of your head so that I could see how beautiful your mind was.
I fell in lust with your thoughts, beliefs and morals.

It was amazing how bright you could shine in the midst of the dark.

I wanted to use my words to undress your soul, so that I can mentally see you naked- the most vulnerable a person could be.

We grew inseparable like chemicals that are bonded in the air that we breathe.

It was a wonderful feeling being needed.

I put a mental block on 90% of my life, which is why I think I don't remember anything.
But, it's more than three years later and I still remember us like it was five minutes ago.

It's like one minute we were good...But the next minute we weren't.
The vibe was wrong.

Trying to get along with the voices in my head..
All they would tell me is that that love shit was null and void,
that my life would be so much better if you just dropped dead.

If I had to choose I don't know what I'd do...

The past is the past, why wait on it to change?
It's crazy how things change.

To think it was you that I once worshipped..
I'm the queen, you're just a fool.

If I can't be happy, then nobody deserves to be happy.
Cold hearted, I know, blame everyone who mistreated me..
Including yourself.

I had big dreams for us.
But it's not worth it anymore.

I'm slowly drifting..
Starting to feel like I'm on airplane mode.

Wish I could escape for a week and get my mind right.
One day I'll have the guts to do it, just not today.

I don't ever wanna fall in love again.
I was taught to love the memories.. Not the bitch.