Imaginary

Eyes close and my link to the world disappears
Sleep is supposed to wash away all worries and fears
I disconnect myself from all the secrets I keep
I try to leave it all behind at night when I sleep

My dreams crack and bruise under pressure
I wear a smile and a frown twisted together
I compress all this pain I feel inside
It's just one of the things I try to hide

I'm running out of words to say
I'm talking but it's just child's play
I'm confused but I'll figure it out in the end
I fall and pick myself back up again

You tell me you'll save me from myself
Grasping hands desperate to escape this hell
You tell me to trust you and let it go
But this pain and darkness is all I know

When the sun arrives and misty grass gleams
My internal wounds are more healed it seems
I reach out for you but only touch air
Then I wake up and realize you were never there