Pale Recovery

You Speculate, too quick to judge,
Conculsions made, hold the same old grudge,
 
One little nudge, neva hurt the right place,
But a slap in the face, leaves a  lasting bad taste,
 
My words a waste not wanted, was it all a waste of time,  
Finally feeling that you've come so far, almost reached that finish line,
 
Gripped by unforgottens as your world starts to unwind,
 
You knew the risks, and still you took,
Mistakes were made, broken rules torn out the book,
 
Just one look, had you comming back for more,
This deadly evolution, my medamorphisis encore,
 
Repeated self denial, addicted to the pain,
At home in absolution, as you purge away the stains,
 
Save it for a rainy day, or rain on my parade,  
Jaded by emotion, guilty conscious, mind games played,
 
Open water antics, find your swimming with the sharks,  
Gambling against great titans, fallen deep blue sea monarchs,  
 
Today we wash away the blame,  salt  water wells the eyes,  
Blinded by the sea backspray, wash over waves of no suprise,  
 
Poisoned lyrics set the seen, mark my words to  mask the truth,  
Harsh reminder hitting home, a reality uncouth,  
 
Capture countless mind warps, dilute a fantasy found proof,
 
Grant me unforgivens, cant discuise the lies fore told,  
Holding future fortune free, in a gest for grasby gold,  
 
Cold metal burns the skin, worth more its weight inturn,
Gives birth the ghost within us all, subjued in lessons learned,
 
Now or never, the time is now, find beauty lost within,
Equality the change of doubt, not knowing compfort in your skin,  
When all the twists and turns unwind, reality stretched thin
 
This rollercoaster ride lived thrice
Raise the bar, repent your sins
Wash away the darker ties
Bleeding dry the lust within
 
Regret a word i do not know
 
One life, one choice, one win.