sLoWly LaYinG mE To rEsT

     Everytime you speak, your holding the blade against my wrist. Everytime you yell you push harder and cut deeper. 
     Everytime you hit me your putting pills inside my mouth. Everytime you throw me to the floor, your holding me by my neck, drowning me in the water.
     Everytime you yank my heart out of my chest and everytime you stab it, your slowly laying me to rest. 
     Everytime I look at you my eyes well up with tears. Everyday Iam in fear and wonder how i dealt all of these years. 
     Everyday iam afraid to really tell you how i feel. Everyday I wonder if your insane enough to kill. Everyday i lie to myself, and try to believe this isnt real.