you probably think you used me

but I said no for  
the first time (and I was with you)  
 
& you have no idea  
what sort of shit I've—  
but hey,  
I liked it when  
your hand was around  
 
my throat  
and I liked your hands  
in my hair.  
 
I think I have   a thing  
for hands- yours pushed me out  
the door  
because I said-  
 
but hey,  
call me.  
 
don’t call me.