Your Heart & Mine

 I get sad when I feel, how much your heart it cares.
I've cried, but I know your happy.
Even I'm so far from being close to you, out there, I've tried.
Your special to me, It's something I've never tried to hide, never have I felt denied.
But I'm feeling sad, like someone just up and died.
I wish it wasn't so, but never have I lied.
It's not that we don't feel each others long distant love, with all the long spoken words, kisses and good-byes.
Baby that's never been the problem.
You've given me the hope, wholly like a dove whom whims to fly.
Without the cover pulled down over both it's searching eyes.
I can't tell you what your heart really feels, I only know my heart is one beat away from being realized.
From letting free to un-reveal beyond my masked disguise.
My head is thinking constantly, twenty four hours seven days a week.
It shouldn't come as no surprise.
These are the longest hours of my life as I desire for the final peak, and breach the skies.
Hoping that the bottom won't be another losing streak, I'm just to weak between the thighs.
Life can be so unkind.
To live through this pain again and all the ups and downs, and it's demise.
While I contemplate, for another painful compermise.
While I know you've heard every single word that I've spoken, as I speak about our lives, combined.
But maybe you still have questions, and those wonders whys?
I know I still sit here through the night, sleepless sometimes tears they gather from both these eyes, an multiply.
Trying to figure out what is really right.
It's nothing I can even reach to get a grasp, as the tears have left me blind.
Ticking away, as I hear the sands run through the hour glass of time.
I have to hurry before there's nothing left but my past, and the aging lines.
They always last and come to fast.
And In the end, only my love will live to outlast what's been left behind.
And it'll be just another empty memory that was so close to being devine.
Now I'll say farewell, as there is no more, for me to re-define.
So now I'll clear my mind, to rest in a state of dream un-confined.
Existing in a space continuum of time, it's so utterly sublime.
And now I bid you all goodnight.