Need

I need to hear your voice.
It's fading from my memory, becoming dull and void.
I scramble for the sound.
In desperation I tear apart my brain neuron by neuron until it's found.

You're becoming flashes to me.
Not even a solid person anymore, a drifting figure I can barely see.  
I'm so scared.
I'm losing you so I can't have you when I need you there.

It's been so long now.
I'm trying to keep you in my life but I don't know how.
I hate this suspension.
Sucking away my blood, crushing me under tension.

Where the hell are you?