Discouraged

Half of me wants to yell..
  While the other half of me wants to bail...
From Life that is..
  Sick of wearing this ungrateful grin on my face...
Tired of running this race,treading at the same pace...
  Wanna just seclude my self into a tiny space..
With a window...
  So I can look out and no one can look in on "ME"..
Tired am I..Of this feeling of Misery and pain..
  Strain on my body..YESS..it wears this pitiful shame..
I tried to make things right..
  Tried so hard..
But nothing worked..I still wanna take my life..
  So when I go.. that smirk I wear will be real..
Cause for once its something I wanna feel..
 Half of me wants to yell..
The other half i think already bailed...Out on "Me"