My Perfect Little Life

Two pink lines appeared today
Fell on my knees thank you god
Been trying for years for this
Now I finally have a growing life
To the doctors next week I go
I prayed to you lord to give me a child
Too many I've lost, too many have died
Days on end all I could do was cry
Hearing a heartbeat one day, next week it was gone
I want to hear your life beat loud and strong
Heading into this office so scared I am
Lying naked covered in a sheet
Ultrasound machine beeping to a beat
Warm jelly on my belly searching sign of life
Beep pulsing heartbeat sounds on machine
Tears of joy stream down my face
18 weeks along my dear she says
Sex of the baby? Yes please
A little girl your having looks like to me
A smile and a tear of joy reign from my eyes
This I promise lord will not die
8 months I became high blood pressure spiked
Hospitalized for weeks so scared in fright
Emergency C-section was what I had
Spinal tap didn't work, knock her out instead
Face mask over my mouth to sleep I went
Waking up in excruciating pain I ask
Where's my daughter is she safe she ok
Inside the room with your husband they say