My best friend

You're supposed to be my best friend.....                                                                              
You know my secrets and you know of my past,things I've kept buried deep within and things I'm not particularly proud of..You know my pain,you know what hurts me the most and you know the depression of my dark side that drives me over the edge..
You promised to keep me safe,you promised to always be there for me ,you promised never to make me cry ;and yet ,here I am talking to my self with so much pain in my heart,pain you've caused and pain that is so deep I don't know how to control..
I know my mistakes,I've learnt from them and with every passing day,I'm becoming a better person..
You're supposed to help me,to stand by me and be my guide through it all  ;but here I am,more alone than I have ever been..No one to talk to,no one to confide in,no one to make me smile or tell me it's going to be alright..
You're supposed to be my best friend and yet,you use my past against me,you dis trust me,no matter how much I try to convince you otherwise..You bring me so much pain with your words and you pierce me through the softest parts of my soul because you know exactly where those parts are hidden..

You're supposed to be my best friend,my backbone,my rock but you find it amusing to break me down piece by terrifying piece..I used to be strong,I used to be so brave,I was used to being on my own until I met you and you broke down my entire wall with your charm,your words and your promises that I was foolish enough to believe every word that came pouring out of your mouth..
I let you be my eyes and ears,I let you carry me on your back and I ws flying with your wings..
You took me places I'd never been,you lit up my path and I knew that finally,I was safe with you ;until you started digging..You wanted to know the reason for my darkness,you wanted to see through me..I knew you were threading on dangerous grounds but I was flying so high with your wings I couldn't see that your light wasn't strong enough to deal with my dark side,a side I had locked away with chains and iron bars but you insisted I break those chains and let you light it up..
I opened that door and sadly,your light dint make it past the doorway..You saw what was buried in that room and you armed yourself with it and used it against me..You knew I was past that,moving forward and yet,with every two steps I take,you go into your arsenal and throw a dart or a spear at me,causing me to fall a step back..
You're supposed to be my best friend ;and yet,here we are..You hold all the guns,you fire at me and you never miss your target..I don't know about your past,because I never cared to know as all I cared about was that we were moving forward..Nobody is perfect,we all have things we sometimes regret but we learn from our mistakes and make it better so I cannot fight you back,for I didn't see the need to arm myself,you were all the weapons I needed to fight my battles and now that you have turned on me,I raise my hands up and I yield ;You win..

You're supposed to be my best friend ;and yet,here we are on a battlefield that I exit with nothing but my bleeding soul..
You have won  ;All Hail the KING!!!!