This is me

There's a hole
A void
An abyss
In my heart

I yearn
To be
Close to someone
Dear to me

He doesn't see me
I might as well
Not be there
For I don't exist

In his mind
He has prettier girls then I
I can't blame him
For his thinking is right

Who would want me
I'm a freak
A girl with secrets
And a past

No one bothers
To get to know me
If they just said hello
They might understand

Why was I cursed
To look like this
So very
Hideous

I'm a geek
I'm ugly
And no one would ever
Love me

But I am me
And no on can ever
Be a better me
Than me