Modest Words (I hate you)

You took everything I valued from what we had
and I think I'm forever going to hate you for that.

You've made me someone I love to be to spite you
drain the blood from the bite
then it cant breathe
and poison doesn't matter
because you can't feel what's dead to you.

Teacups and rose petals
on my underwear
the truth is satanic
and it combusts leaving tiny holes in my concience.

Knowing you're alive burns
in my throat and my lungs
no words
just

I love you with my knees
as they're what bruised when I fell
and remain the only part of me
that's healed complete.

But still the fricition of my matress on my back
is unnatural when you aren't
As are the tiny teeth of the night
when they tell me to sleep
and you aren't

We barely even were
because that's easier to defend
but we really fucking were
and that kills me no end.