She makes me feel....

 I find myself thinking about her, more than I should
She makes me feel like a school boy once again
and I catch her looking at me when she thinks I'm not looking
I like how that makes me feel, like how I've always should've been

From a white light, she comes to me in my dreams
She stands there smiling with evil intent
but I do nothing, I just love looking at her
and I slowly breathe in her excited scent

I am strongest in the shadows of the chaotic dream lands
but the light she brings, is a temptation that can undo me
I tell her to come into the shadows, but she says no
"Oh Jezter, my Jezter - if you come to me, I will be your baby..."

Again - temptation to leave the comfort of the shadows
The shadows that have sheltered me in my time of pain
and the comfort of the slow burning misery that I am used to
I move to her - together we make cool gray mist of rain

and for an instant, I feel like me
and for an instant, I am free of misery
but my pain slaps me awake just as we kiss
I am alone again in the Shadowlands, my home, my country