Slang Words For Climax

You're a shame,
that's all.

I'm not proud or pleasant or floundering anymore.

Your jumper sits on the floor of my car,
stepped on every time I need to get somewhere.
There's something ironic there;
turning tables?

You made me so frightened of not being myself
that I lost me entirely
and you never had me at all.
Became falsely cynical
halfheartedly critical
and so treated you like someone worthwhile.

It's funny what you didn't know;
how kind I was to your ego,
never got me off, not once
I'm sorry for letting you think that 20 seconds even counts.

Again this is it,
I'm done with writing all this shit
for you to think I meant it for you
as it's always been mine
along with my mind
which is letting me get through.