A Letter to Him

Today I wrote some lines
..did some lines
and wished I could do more...
But my eyes involuntarily closing
kept me from walking to the door.

Dropped the straw out of my hand
picked up my favorite pen
pulled out a legal pad
and wrote a fucking telegram.

I asked this guy I feel for...
why he cares for me..
what I did to deserve his attention
I want to know what it is he sees.

I got mad and more mad...
happy and then sad..
as my pen wandered off the paper
I kept nodding in and out
because of my little party favors.

I know we'll never be together
things like that don't happen in my world...
that's why I hide away all day..
and my voice is never heard.

I told him he's so handsome
he deserves so much more...
I can't be everything he wants
so I'm showing him the door.

I'm giving up before it happens..
before we fall in love...
put a stamp on that bitch
and send it away, I'm done.

Now I want to cry
just give me something to break
or just give me another line
For I think I just made a mistake.

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