Broken Fool

Please don't leave,
please.
Keep me close,
letting me go would hurt, so much.
No rush in the world
could curl around abandonment,
like chocolate on a pill,
to make it go down easy.

Believe me when I say
how crazy I feel,
heel of my palms sweating,
heart beating much too fast,
anxiety on full blast.

It's what makes me stay the hell away,
makes me swim away from the deep end,
makes me re-bend any misconceptions,
learning new lessons.

I still love, care.
Can't get me out of your hair
that easy.
But now I just wanna swim in the kiddy pool,
like the broken fool I am.