Are you listening?

Am I speaking to fast? Am I boring? Have I told this story
 before? Am I a bit rough around the edges? Did you get a
little  disappointed? Do I slip of the edge sometimes? Can you
see me  drowning? Do you feel compelled to help? Do you
understand there  is nothing you can do? Do you want to stay
with me  anyways? Do you see that when I float, the water seems
to hug me?  Do you notice how calm I can be before the storm
hits? Do  you notice how long it takes for me to resurface? Do
you see me  come back stronger? Am I lying to myself? Have I
already died?  Is there chance for revival? How much medicine
will it take? Am  I worth the cost? Are there others who
deserve the attention  more?  Why does my head go so fast? When
will it stop? Why can’t it be sooner? Should I apply more
pressure? Should I acknowledge  and accept? Should I alter? Do
I have a choice?  What is free will? When does it apply? How
many years of  training will it take? Am I smart enough? Stable
enough? What  does it mean to be insane? Does normal just mean
traits of the  majority? Is it normal to be sad and angry? How
come I never  knew how to be angry? How come I only ever felt
sadness through  others? Should I want to be more isolated if
it makes me happy?  How do I build my community if I want to be
left alone? Is being  an artist a lonely job? What type of
people become  artists? Are all artist hurt? Are all humans
hurt? Will they  always be? Is there a way to fix it? Is art
that way? Should art  become life? What is true self-love? Is
self-love born out  of self-hate what it means to be an artist?
Am I there yet? Am I  there? Am I anywhere?