Enjoying Pain

I enjoy my pain
Every tear that rolls down my golden cheek
Every prayer I CRY out to my God
Every heartfelt song that comes from my soul

I enjoy my pain
Every word that rips into my spirit
Every "thing" that "in" me
Every blow to my face

I enjoy my pain
Every scene that goes into my sight
Every drop of blood that I taste
How sweetly bitter
Every unnoticeable scar
It makes me unable to have strength

I enjoy my pain
Every forced smile
It has a wicked curve
Every forced laugh
A cryptic unusually sinister sound

I enjoy my pain
Every written word that leaves my hand in agony
It has the closest visual of the painful words
Evey word that I speak
The doubtful tone

LORD FORGIVE ME

Ye though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I fear all evil
For thou are not with me
I am alone
I enjoy my pain

I enjoy my pain
Because it loves me
It hangs onto my shoulder
Never letting go
When no one else was there
My pain was always there
Talking to me
Giving me the same stare
Always putting me to sleep
With its torturing me

Weakness weariness
Tired sleepy
Doubtful deeply
Guilty fears
Silent tears
Pouring rain
I enjoy my pain