fuck it

fuck my big hopes
fuck my big dreams
fuck them all
‘cuz they’re not what they seem

fuck these deep thoughts
fuck these words too
fuck all the things
i’ve ever wanted to do

fuck the dark
fuck the light
fuck the day
when all around me is night

fuck having the strength
fuck having the gall
fuck learning to walk
when I can’t even crawl

fuck giving up
fuck giving in
fuck hoping
it doesn’t start all over again

fuck feeling like living
fuck feeling like dying
fuck giving a damn
that i can’t stop crying

fuck this talent
fuck this gift
fuck finding an anchor
when i feel alone and adrift