Tumbling Into The Darkness

I hear it calling again, that voice from the dark
I resist but I know down that trail I’ll embark
Try as I might to set myself straight
I always seem to swallow the bait

I never ignore that sweet siren song
Telling me everything I’ve gotten wrong
So I question, I wonder, I doubt, and I fear
As my mind whispers dismal thoughts in my ear

Alarm bells start ringing to warn me away
“Do not fall down that hole!” they seem to say
But I’ve never listened even when I should
Today I don’t think that I even could

A desolate place in my soul opens wide
And I have no place in which to hide
My distress seems quite subtle right at the start
Yet soon it completely envelopes my heart

Darkness bites down like a dog on a bone
The queen of insecurity won’t be dethroned
No matter how hard I try and I fight
In these horrible clutches I am caught tight

Down this road many times I have rushed
Every time at the end my spirit was crushed
I must out to an end this pain in my soul
And make myself once again whole

I must pull myself out of this dark place
I need to stop these tears staining my face
I will try distracting myself by writing it out
I hope finding the words will turn off the spout

Maybe I’ll lose or maybe I’ll win
Or just start the battle all over again
But I hope some solace in poetry I find
I hope I’ll manage to not lose my mind