Best not to dwell

I am a loose cannon, i got a screw uncrewed inside my head
Im afraid i might lose my mind
Its a kind of fright, that screams at you at night
It makes you cry and want to die, and the frightning thing is, i dont know why

I could be happy and not give a damn
The next minute, i could have a knife in my hand
With the point up against my wrist
Hoping to taste deaths sweet kiss

Funny how it all happens,  but now im here rappin
About life,and death
About the line that divides my head
One wants me dead, the other alive
So now i fight to survive, to strive inside this prison cell
This torture chamber, my own room in hell
Maybe i shouldnt dwell on this subject for long
But otherwise, i'd never make my song
I swear there's something wrong with me

Torturing myself? Maybe
But i deserve this pain
I'm but a stain on this world
I need to be cleaned away, wiped off the plate called life
No one would notice you know?
I'll be just another kid, who full filled everyones wish
To make myself gone
I swear there's something wrong with me

I cant see how people expect me to be happy
In a world full of cruelties and monstrocities
Why fear the monster under my bed, when i can hear the one in my head?
The closet is wide open, come take your pick of my skeletons
See why i despise myself, how i hate this image i see
But i bet you dont care, all anyone ever does is just stare
But i dare you, take a peek inside
Just be careful not to lose your mind

I dont see why you say you'll stay at my side
I need you more than you need me
You are a queen, just so you know
I'm but a man with no home
No place to call mine, and yet you're still at my side
I dont mind, but it's kind of confusing
Could you be using me, or could you actually be my friend?
One of which ive never had, one who loves me, even when im bad
I know i love you, but the monster inside me wants to deny that possibility
Theres something wrong with me

I would die for you
Give a universe for you to hold
While i try to mold a heart for you to take
I sold mine a long time ago
But i dont need a heart
For me, love is my only beat
You pump my blood
And pull me through the mud
But now i must stop, and just sink
There must be something wrong with me

Me. Me. Dont you see?
This is the problem
That common variable
How is it that everything is breakable?
Even diamonds break
They shatter and their shards scatter the floor
Even our doors break
And all our monsters come in
The barriers that protect us, become our grave
We are slaves to our emotions.
I am an empty shell
With nothing left inside
Best not to dwell on these thoughts for long