Eyelash Tears

Every rise of the sun every tic of the clock there is a new memory in my mind to unlock      
It seems I have been frozen in time standing here all these years  for when I look at you and in your eyes      
I see my own pain staring back and through mirrored eyes I see the horrible scenes playing out over my life's canvas    
I hear these constant words being whispered... but from whom    
     
                                I am nobody      
                                who are you?      
                                 are you      
                                 nobody too?      
               
Constantly you are on my mind , reminders of you everywhere I go      
in my head images of you,never did I think I would lose sanity      
My worst fears  arise and take control of my all, consuming my every thought      
There is a darkness inside of me and through my darkness      
I see eyes staring back at me, pain so deep it's hard to swallow, my soul now hallow      
I would follow you anywhere to the four corners of the earth and back, if only you had asked      
Facing the road ahead I walk a pitch black path darkness is my salvation      
I try to remain strong, but I long for your touch how your voice sounded when you told me you loved me and always would      
 how much more torture can my heart sustain, pain has become my constant companion      
Almost nightly I wake tormented by  my dreams it seems they are the only place I feel whole      
and you are mine and I am yours, where I can love you freely...      
Remembering my dream so vividly and it makes me wonder were they ever real or just a tortured fragment of an alluded sick mind    
or am I believing in something to real... as if I were deserving