Stranger

sat patiently in protection
of a dim yellow light
for a stranger's company
in hopes to spark my
rain-soaked candle soul
I've lost all control

Thin red lines running
on skin's surface
pain sets in and kicks
hard at creaking, fraying nerves
I clearly see
all I can't be

This guitar was my happiness
In which I confided
but steel strings rust
and choose to betray,
left strangled,
broken, entangled

Compulsive liar
thief, cheat,sinner
Living life behind facade
I can't remember
who I was before...
who I am in the core

Words lost, I forget.
who am I?
lying like breathing, falsities
are now a reality to me
System error
too much terror

I can't... I must. I'm not-- myself Who-- am i?
ridiculous.
You created me
I am your lies

sat aimlessly in protection
of a flickering yellow bulb
for a stranger's hand
for me to take
in hopes he'll have a pistol
to put against my temple