years go by, but i still miss you

so many years ago I loved you oh so. know after all that I said I love you, I still miss you oh so. when I'm drunk I still miss you, I know that you have moved on, but this man has not. many have I  said that I loved. but a substitute they are not. I cry your name  but do not expect any love in return. I do not know why I can't let you go. love is a pain that causes me to weep like a girl. I do not know how to love another. you are the one that I love forever. you are know married and I am a forgotten memory. The future that we planed is still in my priorities. how do I move on?. I don't know, but I must. crying for you has to stop. I can't keep waiting for you, when I know that you have moved on. misery is my love for you, babies that are his should be mine, like a nightmare I can not hide. loving you was my life's wish, babies born should be mine, I am alone with out you beside me. I lost everything  when you left.  I do not know how to carry on! if there is a lord I beg you, help me with this broken heart.