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confusion
I don't know if i am happy or sad..
some days i feel really bad
for thinking of those forgotten
deep inside i feel rotten
I have this beauty before my eyes
yet its starting to feel like a disguise
are my intentions for her pure
or am i just a cruel lure
and that one man who she contacts
i know he's just a friend but im without facts
whenever i meet him he draws his gaze away
all i want is for her to stay
im in love or im just selfish
but in the end she is my final wish
i dont want her to leave my side
these feelings i seem to hide
im sure she knows that she is my all
but this feeling, its all going to fall
dont leave me i beg of you
i love you, you always knew
just stay by me,as its my selfish wish
i'll pay the price, even my head on a dish
just stay by me a little longer
just tell me, or i will ponder
the mysteries behind those eyes
i want them all to be mine
my poker face, just a disguise
but just stay by me and ill be fine
some days i feel really bad
for thinking of those forgotten
deep inside i feel rotten
I have this beauty before my eyes
yet its starting to feel like a disguise
are my intentions for her pure
or am i just a cruel lure
and that one man who she contacts
i know he's just a friend but im without facts
whenever i meet him he draws his gaze away
all i want is for her to stay
im in love or im just selfish
but in the end she is my final wish
i dont want her to leave my side
these feelings i seem to hide
im sure she knows that she is my all
but this feeling, its all going to fall
dont leave me i beg of you
i love you, you always knew
just stay by me,as its my selfish wish
i'll pay the price, even my head on a dish
just stay by me a little longer
just tell me, or i will ponder
the mysteries behind those eyes
i want them all to be mine
my poker face, just a disguise
but just stay by me and ill be fine
Published 16th Jul 2013
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16th Jul 2013 1:54am
16th Jul 2013 1:59am
thanks for the feedback, this is how im honestly feeling with my current relationship, feel free to read my previous writings as well
4th Nov 2013 5:33pm
dude youre poetry is awesome i never get bored reading it, we need to hang out again. like, PROPERLY! none of this "once every couple weeks shit" keep writing and keep youre head up!
6th Sep 2013 3:32am
Yep. And I don't think you know how much the break up hurt her. Days spent crying, hurting... Those bruises? Self infliction. That silence? To stop the tears and self pity. Shes hurting to you know. More than you could EVER imagine...
Every night, she gets asked about you, and she still replys "I was on the phone with MY Alex" then with a tearful sigh, she'll correct herself, knowing that she can no longer lay in your arms, or kiss those soft lips. Shes scared, so many reasons it happened. That girl that is just a friend? She hunts you, and I can see it in her eyes, like a famished lion. Shes the cheater, not your lost love. Shes willing to break your best friends heart to steal you, and that's what your lost love was scared of. Don't you see that? All those lustful girls, ruining her life just to get to you. Even your once lost flame, still burns in the background, constantly burning your lost lover with questions about the connection between you. And those lies that she pushed aside, they ate her. Feeling ashamed and embarrassed to even sit with you, she tried to put on that brave face for you. She broke it off to save you. With any more stress she would have buckled, Forever only seen on a headstone. She was so close not only to losing you, but to losing herself. She does love you, but to rebuild this once great love right now is too risky. For now, please accept her pear blossom, instead of the once white rose she offered. Shes still cares..
Every night, she gets asked about you, and she still replys "I was on the phone with MY Alex" then with a tearful sigh, she'll correct herself, knowing that she can no longer lay in your arms, or kiss those soft lips. Shes scared, so many reasons it happened. That girl that is just a friend? She hunts you, and I can see it in her eyes, like a famished lion. Shes the cheater, not your lost love. Shes willing to break your best friends heart to steal you, and that's what your lost love was scared of. Don't you see that? All those lustful girls, ruining her life just to get to you. Even your once lost flame, still burns in the background, constantly burning your lost lover with questions about the connection between you. And those lies that she pushed aside, they ate her. Feeling ashamed and embarrassed to even sit with you, she tried to put on that brave face for you. She broke it off to save you. With any more stress she would have buckled, Forever only seen on a headstone. She was so close not only to losing you, but to losing herself. She does love you, but to rebuild this once great love right now is too risky. For now, please accept her pear blossom, instead of the once white rose she offered. Shes still cares..
21st Nov 2013 8:35am