Away for so long

It seems like yesterday merged with today,
And both flew blindingly fast, right past me.
I'm breathless, boundless, spinning,
I'm out of control in this cycle.
Then I close my eyes and it all fades away,
As if it never existed at all.
As if was all just a dream, all fake.
I have felt so empty for so many years.
I've cut to fill the void, I've stolen,
I've lied and I've hurt those around me.
I've been away from my true self for so long,
I almost forgot who I was and where I was hiding.
I've been away for so long...