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My heart and soul cry out for his warmth. My vision fades as I cry my tears of pain. I wish he could how much I love him, how much I care. I just want to end it all. End all my pain. I hate not being able to tell just how I really feel. Why I can't I just tell him? Why am I so stupid? Why am I like this? I hate hiding my feeling but I don't want to be hurt more than I already am. My tears burn as they run down my face. I try to write out how I feel, but I can't see past my  pain. Why does this have to be so painful? I feel like my soul is fading away slowly and my heart is getting smaller. I can't handle all this pain, it's killing me, but I'm not dead. Would he notice if I was dead? Would he care? Or just turn away n never look back? If I was gone he would never know how I ever felt or know I love him more than anything in the world.