the pain

it wont subside by any drink,

no drugs or laughter,

even further i sink,

looking into a cracked mirror,

looking back at my broken reflection,

you where my strength,

just wanna be on the right side of the fence,

please help me,

im sore its plain to see,

if i could hold back the rain,

could please numb the pain,

i feel it seep into my heart,

was fucked from the start,

this is unbearable agony,

pain is so much its shaggin me,

with every single drink,

it just makes me think,

it makes me remember everything,

every minute i feel its sting,

i need someone to help me forget,

help me forget and to stop the regret,

i need you by my side,

the pains eating me alive,

feels like no chance to survive,

this is my path of self-destruction,

i just need to be reconstructed,

watched so many things die and pass,

always knocks me down on my ass,

will i ever get the help i deserve,

will my screams for help always go unheard,

im screaming because i remember everything,

every little thing that you did to me,

everything thats fucking killing me,

maybe this is what my path holds,

will i be this sore until the day i grow old,

alcohol doesnt help and drugs make it worse,

pain so real feels like im in the back of a hearse,

my blessed life is pain,

and im empty only nothing remains........................