Two Thousand Pieces

Shattered.    
   
A thousand laughs and a thousand tears  
in pieces    
lost against a blue sky.  
How dare the world be so bright  
while I am left here in the dark.  
   
How dare you be so cold when all that I've given you is warm.    
   
You must have long arms    
to keep me so far  
yet hold me so close.  
   
Praising my perfection  
while pointing out    
every little thing  
I didn't mean to do wrong.    
    
It must be my fault.    
It always is.  
   
Though I'll never know.  
   
My words fall on empty phone lines  
or your back    
while you walk away.  
   
The only thing left is to write  
but you don't fight that way.  
   
My wires keep getting crossed    
in your mixed signals.  
If I'm happy or sad,    
I don't know,  
but there seems to be only one way  
you want me.  
   
I'm exhausted from running after you.  
Tired from waiting.  
My strength is waning    
(and my complexes building).  
   
I'm tearing myself to pieces over you.  
You don't notice the cracks,  
 
but it doesn't matter.  
   
All that matters is your smile.