Adamant Love

I am at the start of a journey  
I have felt it for nearly a year  
The place I am going ain’t clear  
I am leaving this Old World  
To get a better clearer view  
Of all the things I hold dear  
So where shall I go to look  
Into the fate hand written book  
My soul I must put on the line  
If the truth I am to define  
 
I sit at the edge of space and time  
Part of all things that make my mind  
Then strangely and with fear  
The very voice of God I hear  
 
‘What are you doing in this place  
So far from the World in my space’  
 
‘I am here to see myself and to know  
If my dreams have a place to go’  
 
‘Do you promise on your soul truth to tell  
Otherwise I will send you to timeless hell?’  
 
‘Oh yes of that I vow for you to see  
Or my life will be meaningless, empty’  
 
‘So first what are the things you hold dear  
And would die for without second thought?’  
 
‘All are equal in my mind and the fear  
Is that I could never choose between the three  
That make my life so dear and not empty  
The first is my God and source of my strength  
The second is my Goal I have often fought  
The third and I fear is the love of a woman  
That I have been in love with, seems, many a year  
Dear God she is the reason that I am in space’  
 
‘And shouldn’t truth have been on the list?’  
God said deep from within the mist  
 
‘No God truth is not to die for but,  
To fight for every day of my life’  
 
‘And this woman you love so much  
Why do you have this need to talk?  
I warned you about timeless hell!’  
 
‘She fills my life, lights my soul  
So that it shines like a beacon to space  
Everywhere I see her beautiful face’  
 
‘I am puzzled still as to why you are here’  
 
‘The answer is simple and quite clear’  
 
‘I see your love is true by your face?’  
 
‘Yes god but I am old gold and she not  
Far past being a woman child of late  
And I am loath to hear my fate’  
 
‘And does this child of uncertain time  
Feel the same as you, of another time?’  
 
‘I don’t know, and not at all sure of what  
She feels, or wants to be so tied to me’  
 
‘And why should you be so bold to state  
That you want her for your bridal mate?  
’  
‘For I have never ever been happy with  
My life but once for a short time before  
When I was taken for a ride that was  
Totally without meaning, insecure’  
 
‘And what is your ultimate wish for you two  
Remember your soul and life for sure!’  
 
‘To show her I will love ever cherish  
and respect her for the rest of my life’  
 
‘And what have you done you worm  
To make this possible if it’s your fate?’  
 
‘I have set myself on a path to clear  
Away all the dregs from the past  
So that I can respect myself at last.’  
 
‘And you think that this is enough  
Really I thought you were better stuff?’  
 
‘The other night I was hit by true light  
I sat and told her I wanted her alright  
I said I wanted her for my all life!’  
 
‘By the pales, you fool you should know  
Better, you of all taught her so  
to judge a man by what he does, not says!  
And of all the pain I have put in your life  
To test your need of this beautiful wife?’  
 
‘Of pain God I accept that without it life  
Cannot be said to be so sweet and defined  
Every day I wake, her face and the hope  
That the delay of pain will give me time  
To strengthen my will to forge rope  
Of truth and light that will tie us also  
To your truth and being one with love’  
 
‘And what would you have me tell  
this child of mine, and don’t forget hell!’  
 
‘God I would have you tell her this  
All true things in the universe are of  love  
Love and truth are as part of God, as God  
Is made  of eternal truth and love for all  
That to be truly happy she must be true  
To herself to her heart and soul and creed  
That she must see the light to succeed  
In being the star-child that will sit by you  
When all of these lesser lives we lead  
Are a thing of the distance past indeed’  
 
‘And what would you do if after all of this  
When I have told all of these things for you  
And she says'... ''I know, and him I don’t need  
You must let me tell him he won’t succeed''  
 
'And in your answer don’t forget the fire  
Because you will be on a spit over the pyre  
If I even get a whisper that you’re a liar ?’  
 
‘I will be happy I have had the chance to  
Love and choose and lose the star-child  
Of my every waking moment and dreams.  
I will sit in patience and wait for her and  
When she gets there say, Hey Cheryl ;)'

[dedicated to Gabriel's Love of Cheryl]