Better

I feel like things are really starting to
Look up for me
I'm getting a new home,
A new school
Nothing can get better right?
Wrong.
All of my memories are still there and I
Cant get them to go away
Because when I'm alone,
I think.
And now there's no one else to blame
Because I know that I miss you
And all of the memories are still there
When will I be able to move on?
I just want you either back in my life
Or completely erased from all of my memory
Everything happens for a reason
Did you have to come
And make me make stupid decisions?
How come I can't do it on my own?
I'd be better!
I'd be myself again
Not so hurt
But also not so mended
I will never be whole again
But without you
I am not better,
A broken soul with no one else to blame,
But myself
I will never be better again
I was never fully put together
Never fully healed
If I keep breaking off little pieces
I soon will have nothing left
What do I do when everything is gone?
Will I actually turn to someone?
Just to find that they have all left me?