Pain

I feel rutted,      
Gave my life little thought,      
The people I once knew
I felt trusted,          
Now are gone,  
     
Now only to be sought,
The mere thought of not can rot,
I guess it's my turn to burn      
I've known in heart and mind,      
I've learned,
It's hymn spins on a dime,
Life's main stages the power and crime,  
Now it's time to shine in a world of painful line,      
Standing proud against the prejudice's pouring insanity,  
Waiting for in time,
To find what is rightfully mine,    
I've lost my support team,
But I still have a back-up plan to intervine          
Nothing can hold me back,
I'm ready now for the attack,      

We once stood so proud,      
Against the midnight's painful schrowd.          
Feeling distant now,      
Alone in this wondering crowd,      
Without them in sight,      
They were my guides,
Who knows,
I may die,      
But it won't bring'em back no matter how I try,          
     
I guess we'll never know,      
Just how far this pain will go,      
I can't stop cryin,            
To have lost so much time      
My heart torn, hard and lonely,      
I wish they were here,      
I long for them near.            
Nothing can help me now,      
Death has come and gone,      
Without saying a word,      
It must be what I deserve...            
         
But now,      
I'll live without,      
And now, I'll wonder how...