Free Falling

                          
You make me want to scream until there is silence, darkness I seek
I'm sick of crying I'm tired of trying it's like a horrifying dream
I'm smiling, but inside I'm dying, tears are the words the heart can't speak
My soul hungers for salvation leaving my body weak
To my knees I fall starved for your affection I feel I may parish I want to vanish
I got used to feeling wanted you quenched my thirst by showering me
with your love for awhile it was paradise, then like a thief you stole
that feeling back like it was given to me by accident
Thoughts of you burn my mind like fire that no amount of water can extinguish,  I once was blind but now I see with eyes wide open
what a liar you really are, alas defeated I surrender unable to fight this losing battle I'm able to rid my mind of you
I've had  time to grow and I found my wings and take flight
I vanish out of sight, a life of loneliness my plight I'm free falling with no more self inflicted wounds of pains strife