no lil pieces of paper i just see stars

compartment syndrome    
     
a familiar family darkness    
shimmers and shines    
she needs an explicit warning sticker    
and a drug interaction research pamphlet    
     
i love the pretty lil stains from  manic panic    
doom and gloom    
emotional hesitation    
and periodic isolation    
in the morning    
     
no costumes    
the smell of the aurora borealis    
black lights behind those dark shades    
if i could blink    
i would'nt want to    
i would engage in sepulcher    
i would break some bad    
to prevent her from breaking a nail    
i might even cut my hair and shave    
quit drinking to trip that trigger    
and mural her walls    
with enough of my brains    
to paint a picture of the idealogy of connection    
i left back on krypton    
     
i've been in love with dead women before    
but they don't usually die first    
the eternal search for tender touch    
it ends here with a cold blue scratch    
     
     
funeral flowers    
if i could just make the doll's plastic butterknife  cut    
and arsenic this miniscule tea set    
before the soccer boys sit and fake to play    
     
   
before the rest of these cowards    
i might actually leave the house again    
i may try to remember an evening of consumption    
rather than force feeding a forget    
     
shit hot inexperienced i don't give a fuck dancin    
a few e tabs,honey mustard and some bubble wrap    
enough confidence to leave the light on    
enough trust to break the switch    
tattoos sexy enough to circumvent the no sleep over rule    
jus this once    
planes,trains and automobiles    
to have your hand pull me back from that mire    
i'll hold those lines    
     
     
love and lust    
quite confusing  
love like ancient printing presses  
break down,die and never say the right things anymore   
lust with a refreshed ink ribbon  
can carry i love yous atleast right now  
i can love for a single evening and re read daily  
the same ol script
without current subscrition  
love has a halflife less than human  
  but i surely i will lust forever