Ride a Drop of Rain

                  

My heart is heavy mind in turmoil
I can still feel the last touch of your hand
No one seems to understand
how can I convey everything I feel
wanting to peel all the layers of pain away
The sleepless nights and empty days I'm a mess all alone
I will never be the same your eyes still mirror my soul
No one to talk to since you passed away
the silence is deafening and torments me
The sound of your voice haunts me
I visit your grave and fall to my knees calling out for you
the night grows cold and memories of you
like rain fall all around me
the cold consumes me as darkness soaks my soul in
I know you are not here but the echo of your essence lingers
and I find solace in knowing you found peace
your saving grace that you no longer occupy this dark lonely place
I dwell in my empty space and alas sadness is my shadow
it seems time torments me and my flowing tears taunt me
Spiraling downward descending farther within myself I hide in seclusion
I wish at times I were just dead then I'd be reunited with thee
If only I could go to bed and sleep for an eternity time tortures me
No one would be here to miss me, would they even know I'm gone
I'm tired of walking around with a fake smile on my face
I just want to leave this godforsaken place
Wishing I could grab a drop of rain to ride upon
hoping it would bring me to you