The days drag on..

I feel absolutely disgusted with myself
How can i still be breathing i constantly ask myself
When will be the day that i take my last breath?
Living is so hard breathing is exhausting and feeling is torture

I want to be happy so bad but i cant force myself to feel happiness
Its so so difficult for me to keep going
Each day its an uphill battle just to get out of the bed
Pain covers my heart and my heart aches for love

There are cuts all over my body
Hiding them is the hardest part of the process
Chasing dreams that are never going to happen destroys me in the end
How could you honestly be so cruel that you would use and abuse me?

I feel as if i were a rare rose that no one even notices
I love so deep and so much that i lose myself in lust
Loving you makes me want to die because you do not love me
When will you stop hurting the people that care about you?

Cutting each day is an emotional release that makes everything better
Once upon a time i was happy but that was long ago
I feel hopeless and helpless like nothing and no one can take the pain away
I hurt the people that matter most to me because of my addiction

I pray that the lord just takes my life everyday
Pain in my chest increases every second of every minute of every hour
I feel empty and broken never to be put back together
The last thing i want to see before i go is the one i love saying he loves me
This would complete me only if he meant it
Words are easy to say but feelings are hard to feel

Dont ever tell someone you love them if you have no intention of being with them forever
You cant hurt someone you love and be okay with it
So next time you tell someone you love them... make sure you mean it.