Dealing with anger

Stuck
Anguish
The past won't stay still.
Time in my mind is unstoppable.
I'm shell shocked .
The fight inside just took a toll on me.
I'm a peacemaker.
Soldier of honor is what I am.
Grew up on respect and manners.
My heart won't stop racing.
This anger inside makes me too want to punch a wall,
But I rather skip down the hallways.
This anger is suppressed inside.
Erupting volcano could be a possible outcome.
Relax, stop shaking, this isn't real.
You'll be fine.
Don't listen it'll make you'll feel better.
The weighing burdens just left me soul.

This angry makes me sick to my stomach.
This anger make me feel dizzy.
This anger wears down my walls.
This anger makes me feel weird.

I've felt angry before,
But this anger I feel now is anger I don't remember ever feeling before.
How do you handle an emotion that is breaking you inside?
I feel like my boundaries are being torn down by this anger.

This anger reminds me of war.
Specifically world war 2.
Hitler killed innocent people who he considered less than human.

This anger make me wonder how any
Human being can be so mad at
Another human being.

I can't deal with anger.
This unknown anger is manifesting.
I'm so angry I hate myself.
This anger has corrupted me.
I don't know how to deal with this anger.
I don't know what to do with anger.

I let my anger go through letting go of the tears that have been waiting days to fall.
I have so much anger I don't know what to do with it.
I keep repeating over and over in my head " I hate you".
I don't know how else to get my anger out.
There's a lot of self hatred,
But I don't want to hate myself.
I never want to feel the wrath of my friends.
Anger makes me feel physical pain.
Anger, anger, anger.
What has caused me to feel so much anger ?