Did You Mean It…

Did you hear me say it,
The words?
“I love you,
I need you,
I don’t want to live
Without you.”

Did you see my outstretched arms
Open wide to you?
Inviting you,
Begging you,
To simply let me
Hold you…

Did you feel my touch,
On your face with my fingertips?
Memorizing you,
Adoring you,
Wondering how I could
Ever deserve you.

Did you see it there,
The pain in my eyes?
As you grew distant,
As silence thickened,
And I pondered,
My mistake.

Did you hear it,
My cry?
As you walked away,
As you turned your back,
Leaving me to question,
All that I did wrong.

Can I reveal this hurt
To you?
Now?
Finally?
Can I be angry?
Can I question you?

I stare now
At these hands,
Empty,
Seeking,
Constantly moving
So as to stave off the loneliness.

I hold them up to you
Hands wide.
I know they’re small,
But I would have caught
All your pain with them,
If you’d have let me.

So I’ll ask you again…

Did you hear me when I said it,
The words?
“I love you,
I need you,
I don’t want to live
Without you.”

And you look at me,
With dead eyes.
The walls are crumbling,
Tears flood over.
I’m bleeding,
Finally for me…

I tremble…
I ache…
I ask…

Did you ever mean it,
When you said the words?
“I love you,
I need you,
I don’t want to live another moment,
Without you.”

But you never answer…