I'm still looking

I've been away
living
following my yellow brick road

it's quiet at the end
no worries
only happiness

yet I'm never fulfilled

an emptiness lurks at me
shadows my thoughts
drives my senses to lay in bed
to dream
of nothing I know
it's something I need to feel
that's missing

can I find it?
will me to look for it

and if I do find this missing mistake
hope that I won't fuck it up

or I'll always return to empty words
broken hearts
numb lines
and myself