Submissions by tami

Devil on my left
Demon on my right
I wish I had the strength
To even try to fight

Monkey on my back
Until my heart is sore
Wish that fucker quit
Or settle up the score

I'm already dead
Living worse each day
Demon or devil, please,
To which one do I pray

i want to scream out my pain, but have to keep it in
no one except you would understand.
and now you're gone.
i'm left to carry on with my life,
as if nothing ever happened.
no goodbye, nothing at all.
you think that i can erase it?
i believed in you, in what you said.
i lived for each moment with you.
i'm in limbo, drifting, silently hoping,
that you meant what you told me.
praying you will return.
when you said you were cruel, oh i see you meant it.
that you would enjoy my pain.
i hope you are, you are still the only one i wish to...

You
you have become my muse, my voice, my inspiration
Once
you were my dreams, my desires, my life
You
you loved me, you believed me, you wanted me
Once
you lied to me, you hurt me, you decieved me
You
you will never know how much I suffer
Once
you promised me you would always be here
You
you have become even more important to my heart
Once
you destroyed my belief in my abilities
You
you have given me more than you could ever know
Once
you left me all alone

bound from within these insepid thoughts trickle down past the punctures made by the barbed wire around my brain.
flowing through my eyes as the man in the window slowly inches his way past into another secret version of his own hell,he is just a lonely passenger of the void, caressing himself awkwardly until i stare him straight in the eye and ask if he wants to watch me suffer.
he slowly nods as if his acceptance of the treat he has been offered is nothing but one of the many trivialities of his pathetic,mundane life he presses himself against the window pane, the glass rattling...