Submissions by shanomatic

so this is really happening
there’s no second take for hidden cameras
no cue cards
no interview
no soda water

have you even talked to the guy?
eh, why bother…

maybe a successful result
was all you ever really wanted

been up for three days
I thought my damn laptop was talking
I just wanted to make sense of it all
I thought I lost it
like I was just seeing what
deep down i wanted

I mean, why would so many.. fuck, how?!
and what, for me?

I must be dreaming.

Turns out,
it was just what I...

as I was trying to go to sleep
I started having flashbacks
I saw time slip through my fingers
like sand in an hourglass…

strange thing: time

it’s like
the more of it you have
the more often you flashback
to a past you used to have
but you’re never getting back

as a matter of fact
when I fast forward to today
I find myself in a place so strange and far away

impossible to think that I could fall so far from grace
but now I face the fact
that I was never in some heavenly place…

was it all pretend
or just...

my life has gone from shambles to shackles
and it's no surprise that i'm here once more

i'm sick of street credit scores and daily addiction chores
and being torn between trying to score and striving for more

i'm backpedaling blindly down a path i've been down before

i've heard stories of falling from glory
always told through different eyes
but always ending on the same scene

i'm lucky
i haven't lost everything worth losing

yet

but i bet
i'm gonna get what i'm gonna get
and if i'm still fumbling along...