Submissions by shadowkissed (Montana Redd)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
"i act like shit don't phase me, inside it drives me crazy. my insecurities could eat me alive"
indecisive
Isn’t it funny?
I know I don’t stand a chance with you yet I can’t give up
I love you but you don’t even like me
Is it because “I’m not that good looking?”
Everything seems to be about looks in this fucked up generation
I hate it!
I don’t love you for your looks, I love you for you!
Why can’t you see that?
Have you heard the term “rage quit”?
Because I’m on the verge of rage quitting life
The only thing I need to be happy is you, so I guess it’s going to be a long depressing life for me haha
I’m honestly scared that I’m not good enough for anyone...
I know I don’t stand a chance with you yet I can’t give up
I love you but you don’t even like me
Is it because “I’m not that good looking?”
Everything seems to be about looks in this fucked up generation
I hate it!
I don’t love you for your looks, I love you for you!
Why can’t you see that?
Have you heard the term “rage quit”?
Because I’m on the verge of rage quitting life
The only thing I need to be happy is you, so I guess it’s going to be a long depressing life for me haha
I’m honestly scared that I’m not good enough for anyone...
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I'm already dead
I know I shouldn’t feel this way…
I have a great life compared to most
But I can’t help it
I can’t help that I hate every little detail about myself from my head to my toes
I’m not perfect
I’m not a Barbie doll
And I’m not beautiful
I look at myself in the mirror and cry
I want to do something about my weight but just seeing myself makes me want to eat all the problems away
I try to exercise but when I do, I go too far, I exercise until I collapse…
I’m ugly. I’m fat. I’m worthless. I’m unimportant. I’m…. I’m nothing…..
There have been so many...
I have a great life compared to most
But I can’t help it
I can’t help that I hate every little detail about myself from my head to my toes
I’m not perfect
I’m not a Barbie doll
And I’m not beautiful
I look at myself in the mirror and cry
I want to do something about my weight but just seeing myself makes me want to eat all the problems away
I try to exercise but when I do, I go too far, I exercise until I collapse…
I’m ugly. I’m fat. I’m worthless. I’m unimportant. I’m…. I’m nothing…..
There have been so many...
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Just Another Sad Story
It takes courage to look in the mirror every day, when you hate everything you see
It takes strength to get out of bed in the morning
And it takes a heart to compose yourself in front of the ones you love
She keeps on breathing but she’s fading to the darkness
She feels as if the world is on her shoulders, yet she keeps herself in check
She wants to break down and cry, all she needs is to die
She tries so hard but nothing ever goes her way
Her parents hate her
Her boyfriend hits her
Her friends don’t believe her
Every morning she puts on her face and...
It takes strength to get out of bed in the morning
And it takes a heart to compose yourself in front of the ones you love
She keeps on breathing but she’s fading to the darkness
She feels as if the world is on her shoulders, yet she keeps herself in check
She wants to break down and cry, all she needs is to die
She tries so hard but nothing ever goes her way
Her parents hate her
Her boyfriend hits her
Her friends don’t believe her
Every morning she puts on her face and...
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winters moon
As I lie awake in bed, another sleepless night
The rain pours down against my roof
The wind rustling against the trees
I’m under four blankets in the freezing cold
My fingertips are that of ice
My skin turning a pale purple
I’m in shivers, chilled to my very core
I’ve learnt not to question existence but in this very moment I can’t quite help it
What am I doing here?
On this earth, I am nothing
I thought my questions were answered when I met you
But how wrong I was
Tears streak my face as I’m left alone to hug my pillow
I dry my eyes,...
The rain pours down against my roof
The wind rustling against the trees
I’m under four blankets in the freezing cold
My fingertips are that of ice
My skin turning a pale purple
I’m in shivers, chilled to my very core
I’ve learnt not to question existence but in this very moment I can’t quite help it
What am I doing here?
On this earth, I am nothing
I thought my questions were answered when I met you
But how wrong I was
Tears streak my face as I’m left alone to hug my pillow
I dry my eyes,...
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Do You Hear The Laughter?
You ripped out my heart
Spat on it, and gave it back to me beaten and bruised
I loved you, but all you brought me was a heart full of pain
You wanted to keep things a secret… but I’m just not that kind of girl
Were you really that heartless, to try and hide me from your friends?
My love has faded
My hate runs deep
but times have changed sweetie
I want you to hurt
To hurt like I was hurting
To be hurt by someone you love
I want you to know what it feels like to have your heart broken
To want to end it all
I want you to cry yourself to...
Spat on it, and gave it back to me beaten and bruised
I loved you, but all you brought me was a heart full of pain
You wanted to keep things a secret… but I’m just not that kind of girl
Were you really that heartless, to try and hide me from your friends?
My love has faded
My hate runs deep
but times have changed sweetie
I want you to hurt
To hurt like I was hurting
To be hurt by someone you love
I want you to know what it feels like to have your heart broken
To want to end it all
I want you to cry yourself to...
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i don't have anymore "f**ks" to give
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Why Should I Care?
It’s been months since I last heard a word from you
So what makes you think you can come crawling back to me saying “I love you”
You tore me in two, left my emotions beaten and bruised
I had no idea what to do without you, I almost ended it all
Would it have been easier to end it?
Would I still be in this much pain?
You said you loved me; do you have any idea how much I’ve heard that shit?
Do I miss you... or who I was when I was with you?
They say that scars fade, but do broken hearts heal?
Or will there always be a fragment left unhealed?
Where...
So what makes you think you can come crawling back to me saying “I love you”
You tore me in two, left my emotions beaten and bruised
I had no idea what to do without you, I almost ended it all
Would it have been easier to end it?
Would I still be in this much pain?
You said you loved me; do you have any idea how much I’ve heard that shit?
Do I miss you... or who I was when I was with you?
They say that scars fade, but do broken hearts heal?
Or will there always be a fragment left unhealed?
Where...
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Open The Door
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Believe Me
I’m told I’m too young to know what love is
But if you ask me love has no limits
I think love is when you look that person in the eyes and you feel that connection
When you have been together for years yet you still get butterflies just talking to them
When you kiss them and thoughts explode
When you touch them and the sparks ignite
When you can feel their touch long after they’re gone
When you do anything for them, even if it meant sacrificing your own life
You would do anything to see them smile
And when they hurt, you hurt
I believe I have...
But if you ask me love has no limits
I think love is when you look that person in the eyes and you feel that connection
When you have been together for years yet you still get butterflies just talking to them
When you kiss them and thoughts explode
When you touch them and the sparks ignite
When you can feel their touch long after they’re gone
When you do anything for them, even if it meant sacrificing your own life
You would do anything to see them smile
And when they hurt, you hurt
I believe I have...
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Face The Facts
Why can’t you see?
Why can’t you see I’m not that girl anymore
That girl was lost a long time ago
That girl that felt compassion for others
Felt remorse
Felt anything
I changed
Ironic, I’ve turned into what I told myself I would never become
But here I am
I’m rude
Crude
A bitch
Selfish
Arrogant
A Backstabber
I want things
Things I know are bad for me
I crave things
Things I shouldn’t
I want him
But I can’t have him
I guess it’s hard to face the facts when the darkness turns to black
Why can’t you see I’m not that girl anymore
That girl was lost a long time ago
That girl that felt compassion for others
Felt remorse
Felt anything
I changed
Ironic, I’ve turned into what I told myself I would never become
But here I am
I’m rude
Crude
A bitch
Selfish
Arrogant
A Backstabber
I want things
Things I know are bad for me
I crave things
Things I shouldn’t
I want him
But I can’t have him
I guess it’s hard to face the facts when the darkness turns to black
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Killer Instinct
She’s afraid
Afraid to love
Afraid to hurt
Afraid of her past
Afraid
Afraid of herself
Of what she can do
Of what she’s capable of
Of her lightning fast reflexes
Her enhanced vision
Her heightened senses
She’s afraid to be herself
To let the monster out
She’s knows she’s different
She doesn’t know why
She slaughters
Slaughters innocent people
She hates herself for it
Yet there’s something there
Something about the feeling of taking lives into her own hands
She holds their very being in her hands
She...
Afraid to love
Afraid to hurt
Afraid of her past
Afraid
Afraid of herself
Of what she can do
Of what she’s capable of
Of her lightning fast reflexes
Her enhanced vision
Her heightened senses
She’s afraid to be herself
To let the monster out
She’s knows she’s different
She doesn’t know why
She slaughters
Slaughters innocent people
She hates herself for it
Yet there’s something there
Something about the feeling of taking lives into her own hands
She holds their very being in her hands
She...
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Who Am I?
I’m often asked
“Who am i?”
Well to answer your question, I’m me
I’m quirky
I’m smart, when it comes to certain things at least
I’m funny, or as I’m told
I’m a great friend; I can always cheer someone up
I’m trying to mend a broken heart, but I think I like someone
I’m self-conscious
I fall too hard to fast
I wish I never fell in love, with him
I wish I wasn’t as nice as I am
I think I’m fat, ugly, and worthless
I wish I was as beautiful as some girls
I like being different
I have depression, but I’m recovering
I have...
“Who am i?”
Well to answer your question, I’m me
I’m quirky
I’m smart, when it comes to certain things at least
I’m funny, or as I’m told
I’m a great friend; I can always cheer someone up
I’m trying to mend a broken heart, but I think I like someone
I’m self-conscious
I fall too hard to fast
I wish I never fell in love, with him
I wish I wasn’t as nice as I am
I think I’m fat, ugly, and worthless
I wish I was as beautiful as some girls
I like being different
I have depression, but I’m recovering
I have...
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