Submissions by screams4you
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
30th Aug 2014 5:06am
30th Aug 2014 5:06am
everything is going wrong
I thought I could block it out
Everything would be so much better, if I could
I thought I was fine
I use to cut
But I realize it was dangerous and it didn't make a difference
On how I would feel
I just pushed it further back
I thought I was cured
But I guess I was wrong
These past couple of days
All I wanted was to make myself feel the pain
Of the sharp object cutting through my skin
Of the little trail of blood
That runs through my skin
It started out as a quiet whisper
Then it turned out, as if someone was right...
Everything would be so much better, if I could
I thought I was fine
I use to cut
But I realize it was dangerous and it didn't make a difference
On how I would feel
I just pushed it further back
I thought I was cured
But I guess I was wrong
These past couple of days
All I wanted was to make myself feel the pain
Of the sharp object cutting through my skin
Of the little trail of blood
That runs through my skin
It started out as a quiet whisper
Then it turned out, as if someone was right...
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Aug 2014 4:26am
24th Aug 2014 4:26am
no ones perfect
I can't be perfect, I will never be perfect
As much as I wish to be so, I won't
You can't make me be perfect
I won't be like my sister or like you
I am me and that's all that matters
If you don't like me, I really don't fucking care
If you have a problem with me
Don't fucking go behind my back and talk shit about me
Stop being a coward and tell me to my face
There are days where, I am going to mess up
There are times where, I Will just want to die
So don't make me feel anymore worse about myself
Its hard enough to know, that my own parents...
As much as I wish to be so, I won't
You can't make me be perfect
I won't be like my sister or like you
I am me and that's all that matters
If you don't like me, I really don't fucking care
If you have a problem with me
Don't fucking go behind my back and talk shit about me
Stop being a coward and tell me to my face
There are days where, I am going to mess up
There are times where, I Will just want to die
So don't make me feel anymore worse about myself
Its hard enough to know, that my own parents...
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Aug 2014 2:13am
16th Aug 2014 2:13am
insane
Everywhere I look, everywhere I go
I can't breathe, I can't run
I try not to think
It hurts too much to do so
Anger and fear builds up inside
I cannot think, when everyone thinks I'm crazy
No one understands me, I need out!
Clawing at the walls, inside of my heart
Screaming in my head
My blood begins to boil
So much rage, so much hate
All I can do is think.....
About the rough knife under my bed
I can hear it calling out my name
Telling me, that it will make my pain go away
Its hard to shut out the urge
To pick it up
What...
I can't breathe, I can't run
I try not to think
It hurts too much to do so
Anger and fear builds up inside
I cannot think, when everyone thinks I'm crazy
No one understands me, I need out!
Clawing at the walls, inside of my heart
Screaming in my head
My blood begins to boil
So much rage, so much hate
All I can do is think.....
About the rough knife under my bed
I can hear it calling out my name
Telling me, that it will make my pain go away
Its hard to shut out the urge
To pick it up
What...
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Aug 2014 6:44am
14th Aug 2014 6:44am
Reminder
A endless reminder of what I've done
The person who I was
The cruelty I spread
Trying to erase those feelings
Doing everything I possibly can to forget them
The consist reminder
Of the thin little marks
The memory of the blood
Smearing on my wrist
The feeling that washes through me
The image of the thin rough knife
That comes slashing down
Cutting through my skin
Sometimes I think its just a dream
I search for the white marks
Once I found them
I know they will always be here to remind me
Of what I've done
The person who I was
The cruelty I spread
Trying to erase those feelings
Doing everything I possibly can to forget them
The consist reminder
Of the thin little marks
The memory of the blood
Smearing on my wrist
The feeling that washes through me
The image of the thin rough knife
That comes slashing down
Cutting through my skin
Sometimes I think its just a dream
I search for the white marks
Once I found them
I know they will always be here to remind me
Of what I've done
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Aug 2014 6:37am
14th Aug 2014 6:37am
Freedom
Voices are telling me to jump
I'm on the railing ready for it
As I take a deep breath
Tears comes to my eyes
My heart is being ripped out
Shattering to a million pieces
Its the only way out
I am going to put an end to all this
As I take a step forward
A struggle comes to me
Something is holding me back
I am leaving everything behind
Its for the best I think
As I take one more step
I can feel the freedom all around me
I am ready for this
This is my escape door
An opportuity to be free
From all this pain
A rush of...
I'm on the railing ready for it
As I take a deep breath
Tears comes to my eyes
My heart is being ripped out
Shattering to a million pieces
Its the only way out
I am going to put an end to all this
As I take a step forward
A struggle comes to me
Something is holding me back
I am leaving everything behind
Its for the best I think
As I take one more step
I can feel the freedom all around me
I am ready for this
This is my escape door
An opportuity to be free
From all this pain
A rush of...
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Aug 2014 00:21am
13th Aug 2014 00:21am
all the stares
I try to not feel the pain they put me through
Everyday I have to put up with all the
Comments, the stares, the whispers, and the laughing
Sometimes all I want to dos is hide and never show my face again
Days go by, I try not to think why me?
Why can't I be like them?
What will it take?
......My life?
I realize I will never be like them!
My world starts to die
All the happiness drains out of myself
I am dead inside
Everyday I walk around with a smile on my face
But inside there is no happiness
Just a empty hole
With everything gone...
Everyday I have to put up with all the
Comments, the stares, the whispers, and the laughing
Sometimes all I want to dos is hide and never show my face again
Days go by, I try not to think why me?
Why can't I be like them?
What will it take?
......My life?
I realize I will never be like them!
My world starts to die
All the happiness drains out of myself
I am dead inside
Everyday I walk around with a smile on my face
But inside there is no happiness
Just a empty hole
With everything gone...
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Aug 2014 1:56am
12th Aug 2014 1:56am
End game (part 4)
I kicked her toward the bench
And told her to sit down
As she took a seat
She was trembling with fear
I couldn't help not to laugh
This poor lady was so scared
I reached for the gun and held it in my own hands
It felt good to hold it
I looked her directly into her eyes
For a split second I felt sorry for her
Then I remember all the shit she did
And the feeling was gone in a flash
I pointed the gun at her head
When I was about to pull the trigger
She said she was sorry
My last words were "so am I"
I squeezed the trigger...
And told her to sit down
As she took a seat
She was trembling with fear
I couldn't help not to laugh
This poor lady was so scared
I reached for the gun and held it in my own hands
It felt good to hold it
I looked her directly into her eyes
For a split second I felt sorry for her
Then I remember all the shit she did
And the feeling was gone in a flash
I pointed the gun at her head
When I was about to pull the trigger
She said she was sorry
My last words were "so am I"
I squeezed the trigger...
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Aug 2014 1:47am
12th Aug 2014 1:47am
lets play my little game (part 3)
Lets get started
I will ask you a question and you will anwser
If you get it wrong
I get to stab you each time
Let the fun begin....
As I started asking questions
She got them right
"How old am I" I asked
You answered, except you got it wrong
Question after Question
I stabbed you again and again
Dark red blood pouring out of you
You screamed and cursed at me
The lady sat there and begged for her own life
I sat there and laughed as she cried out in pain
I took her by the hair and dragged her to the next station
This one...
I will ask you a question and you will anwser
If you get it wrong
I get to stab you each time
Let the fun begin....
As I started asking questions
She got them right
"How old am I" I asked
You answered, except you got it wrong
Question after Question
I stabbed you again and again
Dark red blood pouring out of you
You screamed and cursed at me
The lady sat there and begged for her own life
I sat there and laughed as she cried out in pain
I took her by the hair and dragged her to the next station
This one...
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Aug 2014 8:56am
1st Aug 2014 8:56am
Awkward situation
He tells me he loves me
When I don't feel anything
He tells me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me
How will I anwser?
I can't break his heart
But I can't stay with him either
How do I tell him, I am not interested
Without crushing him into pieces
Each day I see him
I feel so bad for him
Knowing how deeply he loves me
I can't bare to look at him
someday I will tell him
Just not today. .
He seems so happy
I don't want to break his heart
At least right now
When I don't feel anything
He tells me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me
How will I anwser?
I can't break his heart
But I can't stay with him either
How do I tell him, I am not interested
Without crushing him into pieces
Each day I see him
I feel so bad for him
Knowing how deeply he loves me
I can't bare to look at him
someday I will tell him
Just not today. .
He seems so happy
I don't want to break his heart
At least right now
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DARK POEM
Published
7th Jul 2014 4:54am
7th Jul 2014 4:54am
How far will I take it (part1)
Her piercing screams echo in the night
She begs for mercy
For someone to save her
Were out in the middle of nowhere
Away from any human contact
She is all mine!!!
Grabbing rope and tying her to a pole
Laughing as she screams for help
Knowing not a soul can hear her
Pulling her hair and slamming her head into the ground
She falls unconscious
I start to prepare for a night of fun
As I set up each station
Smiling to myself, knowing this will be my best night ever
The escape (part 2)
She starts to wake up ...
She begs for mercy
For someone to save her
Were out in the middle of nowhere
Away from any human contact
She is all mine!!!
Grabbing rope and tying her to a pole
Laughing as she screams for help
Knowing not a soul can hear her
Pulling her hair and slamming her head into the ground
She falls unconscious
I start to prepare for a night of fun
As I set up each station
Smiling to myself, knowing this will be my best night ever
The escape (part 2)
She starts to wake up ...
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Jun 2014 5:53pm
30th Jun 2014 5:53pm
Darkness
I feel darkness creeping into my heart and mind
I try to block it out of my mind, its no use
All it does, is comes back to torture me
As I scream I try to make it leave
There are flashes of pictures that go through my head
All I do is scream and scream
Screaming is all I can do
I think about all the things, I'm giving up
But all I feel is the madness inside of me!!!
The screams that won't go away
The haunting images, that will sufocate me
I am going purely insane, I can feel all the evil inside
The darkness and screams are too loud
I can't...
I try to block it out of my mind, its no use
All it does, is comes back to torture me
As I scream I try to make it leave
There are flashes of pictures that go through my head
All I do is scream and scream
Screaming is all I can do
I think about all the things, I'm giving up
But all I feel is the madness inside of me!!!
The screams that won't go away
The haunting images, that will sufocate me
I am going purely insane, I can feel all the evil inside
The darkness and screams are too loud
I can't...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
29th Jun 2014 11:00pm
29th Jun 2014 11:00pm
Death
Death will find us!
When it does we can't do nothing about it
When its your turn
Don't run or try to hide
Its no use
It will find you
Death will always win
And you will always loose
When it does we can't do nothing about it
When its your turn
Don't run or try to hide
Its no use
It will find you
Death will always win
And you will always loose
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