Submissions by schizodude (monstermusicdude)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
smile
have nothing to fear
for i am here
your life is bad
well so was mine
i wont bite....well
maybe just a little
i wont hurt you
for you are mine
i dont damage my goods
i want my fun
there's no need to run
i'll just break you
leave you wanting for more
so when you think of me
i just want you to smile
and say what a ride
for i am here
your life is bad
well so was mine
i wont bite....well
maybe just a little
i wont hurt you
for you are mine
i dont damage my goods
i want my fun
there's no need to run
i'll just break you
leave you wanting for more
so when you think of me
i just want you to smile
and say what a ride
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On the Verge
you think I’m happy
when i smile
you need to understand
that i’m dead inside
there’s nothing there
except an empty shell
whose soul was lost
so long ago
to pain
to loss
to fear
to hate
what things you have to see
to realize that i’m gone
this world has left me
and i’m all alone
you can see the proof
just look at my arm
it tells you my life
and all that i’ve seen
the hurt
the burns
the beatings
the bruises
yet when you see me
you say i’m always happy
always smiling
never...
when i smile
you need to understand
that i’m dead inside
there’s nothing there
except an empty shell
whose soul was lost
so long ago
to pain
to loss
to fear
to hate
what things you have to see
to realize that i’m gone
this world has left me
and i’m all alone
you can see the proof
just look at my arm
it tells you my life
and all that i’ve seen
the hurt
the burns
the beatings
the bruises
yet when you see me
you say i’m always happy
always smiling
never...
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untitled
the moon looks up, envy in her gaze
at the stars above so full of days
they radiate their beauty
while she stands in disgust
their bodies so slim
hers just huge lumps
her movements are clumsy
theirs are so graceful
their face is so beautiful
hers is filled with cracks and dust
but i would rather choose as my lifelong companion
instead of the stars who ignore me in their beauty
she listens to my words and never turns away
the stars just blush and look the other way
she makes me feel special
they throw me in disgust
she smiles at...
at the stars above so full of days
they radiate their beauty
while she stands in disgust
their bodies so slim
hers just huge lumps
her movements are clumsy
theirs are so graceful
their face is so beautiful
hers is filled with cracks and dust
but i would rather choose as my lifelong companion
instead of the stars who ignore me in their beauty
she listens to my words and never turns away
the stars just blush and look the other way
she makes me feel special
they throw me in disgust
she smiles at...
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Stay Alive
why am i here today?
there's nothing i can do today
that doesn't involve cutting or drinking
my problem away, living
has become so hard for me to bare
with everyone that i cared for
leaving me
or cursing me
to a fate of loneliness
of remembrance
looking towards the clouds
wondering how he's doing
livin' life to the fullest
watching me,crying 'cause of the bulletthat ended not only his life
but mine as well?
i'll never know unless
i go to join him
an offer so tempting
that i think of givin'
my body to the ground ...
there's nothing i can do today
that doesn't involve cutting or drinking
my problem away, living
has become so hard for me to bare
with everyone that i cared for
leaving me
or cursing me
to a fate of loneliness
of remembrance
looking towards the clouds
wondering how he's doing
livin' life to the fullest
watching me,crying 'cause of the bulletthat ended not only his life
but mine as well?
i'll never know unless
i go to join him
an offer so tempting
that i think of givin'
my body to the ground ...
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unsafe
i have no hope for the future
it keeps on chasing me away
and no one knows my struggles
they view me as a sickly dog
chasing me with words or beatings
and i lay on the floor beaten but not broken
trying to rise from the ashes that i'm made of
but life brings me down
promises of love and happiness forgotten
taken and ripped from my life
never given back at once only given in pieces
hopefully i realize my path
if i don't.........we will never know
it keeps on chasing me away
and no one knows my struggles
they view me as a sickly dog
chasing me with words or beatings
and i lay on the floor beaten but not broken
trying to rise from the ashes that i'm made of
but life brings me down
promises of love and happiness forgotten
taken and ripped from my life
never given back at once only given in pieces
hopefully i realize my path
if i don't.........we will never know
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Final Destination
i'm wondering when my life will fall apart
things have been so fucked up
and i can't seem to pick myself back up
along with everything beside you
'cause people always seem to tell me
i'm not damned or cursed but
why is all this shit happening?
i can't help those i love
or be there for them
so many obstacles that won't let me
pass and reach all of them
death is crawling back in my life
he's giving me his boney hand
and i'm so weak that i'm reaching
hoping that it will take me to a better place
one without worries
without...
things have been so fucked up
and i can't seem to pick myself back up
along with everything beside you
'cause people always seem to tell me
i'm not damned or cursed but
why is all this shit happening?
i can't help those i love
or be there for them
so many obstacles that won't let me
pass and reach all of them
death is crawling back in my life
he's giving me his boney hand
and i'm so weak that i'm reaching
hoping that it will take me to a better place
one without worries
without...
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trials of love
she looks at me
with disapproving eyes
her sadness behind it
touches me in ways i cannot explain
but the eyes i see
the looks i get
keep me at bay
and i feel isolated
i have the urge to help her
but its drowned by her face
maybe this is how it is meant to be
for me, living life
full of sadness and misunderstanding
never feeling love and compassion
why am i cursed?
why am i damned?
with disapproving eyes
her sadness behind it
touches me in ways i cannot explain
but the eyes i see
the looks i get
keep me at bay
and i feel isolated
i have the urge to help her
but its drowned by her face
maybe this is how it is meant to be
for me, living life
full of sadness and misunderstanding
never feeling love and compassion
why am i cursed?
why am i damned?
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Past and Future
before i start this poem, there's always something that inspires us to write, write, write. this poem was inspired by something that i read a long time ago and that i thought of a little while ago. we all have our skeletons and secrets inside our closets that we hope will never be discovered by those we love and care about.
"Discretion is hiding somethingwhich we cannot remedy"
-Chinese Proverb
i don't know who i am
or who i have become
there's nothing to describe
how i sometimes feel inside
these voices are explaining...
"Discretion is hiding somethingwhich we cannot remedy"
-Chinese Proverb
i don't know who i am
or who i have become
there's nothing to describe
how i sometimes feel inside
these voices are explaining...
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untitled
we are roses of time
our fates intertwined
they don't seem to separate
or be far apart
your petals are red
mine are too dark
i'm so uncaring
but you seem to tame me
i have a smile on my face
and i slow down my pace
hand her my heart
hand her my life
i hope she doesn't break me
i don't wanna be lonely
there's too many scars
too many drags
that i'll have to go through
that i don't wanna go through
but that doesn't matter
'cause i don't think i'll ever happen
our fates intertwined
they don't seem to separate
or be far apart
your petals are red
mine are too dark
i'm so uncaring
but you seem to tame me
i have a smile on my face
and i slow down my pace
hand her my heart
hand her my life
i hope she doesn't break me
i don't wanna be lonely
there's too many scars
too many drags
that i'll have to go through
that i don't wanna go through
but that doesn't matter
'cause i don't think i'll ever happen
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Who am I?
Who am I?
A 16 year old that nobody sees
someone that everyone leaves
Or am I a disturbed child?
everyone thinking that my voice needs a dial
So nobody has to listen to my voice
and they think they can bury with toys
But wait what are you telling me
that I'm not who I'm suppose to be?
Nothing I've done pleases thee
Yet you've never paid attention to deem
Me a misfit, someone who doesn't learn
yet yall never given me a turn
To speak my piece
So I release
All the pain, all the sorrow
i have in me
Only to carve it away
so...
A 16 year old that nobody sees
someone that everyone leaves
Or am I a disturbed child?
everyone thinking that my voice needs a dial
So nobody has to listen to my voice
and they think they can bury with toys
But wait what are you telling me
that I'm not who I'm suppose to be?
Nothing I've done pleases thee
Yet you've never paid attention to deem
Me a misfit, someone who doesn't learn
yet yall never given me a turn
To speak my piece
So I release
All the pain, all the sorrow
i have in me
Only to carve it away
so...
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What do you think?
People all around seem to just look and gawk at me thinking in their head " Who the fuck does he think he is!?!?" I'm a person that can't seem to escape his past, the person who can hear the voices telling him to kill, the one who can't understand. People all over keep asking me "Why the fuck are you still alive!!!" Funny I'm still wondering the same, you motherfuckers trying to telling me to kill myself but I try not to listen to yall. I'm trying to live my life even if I really am fucken cursed with this shitty fate. I'm living for all those fuckers that said I aint...
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Worst Nightmare
I'm terrified and fearful I don't wanna sleep. I try and try but eventually I fail. The darkness consumes me and swallows me whole. I wake up knowing I'm fake but knowing that I'm me. I see her beautiful face, her mouth is taped and her sobs are unnoticed. She's tied and bound but I'm laughing and enjoying her tears tasting the life and fear inside of her. Whenever I approach her she cries uncontrollably and starts to speak but her words are muffled and I don't really care what she has to say. I kneel and draw out my knife admiring the look of terror this poor girl feels and what she is about...
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