Submissions by rainbow_sunshine (Wendy)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
My goal: be worthy of the attentive ear and open mind
breath out
quiescent keys to warp speed penetration;
straight to the point
when straight was never an option.
expectant and hesitant heeding and halting,
faltering unexpectedly
but honestly-
it wouldn't have happened
if you didn't ask.
ask me if i'm ok
ask me if i 'm happy
but don't tell me you understand
because no one ever has.
psychosomatic semiotic
seismic bullshit.
labels repel
i rebel
i resist
and then i reconsider.
mind was always
the enemy,
...
straight to the point
when straight was never an option.
expectant and hesitant heeding and halting,
faltering unexpectedly
but honestly-
it wouldn't have happened
if you didn't ask.
ask me if i'm ok
ask me if i 'm happy
but don't tell me you understand
because no one ever has.
psychosomatic semiotic
seismic bullshit.
labels repel
i rebel
i resist
and then i reconsider.
mind was always
the enemy,
...
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Expelled
There are some things which words make a mess of
like yesterday's
emitting a ceremonial light cast just the right way
to make a long forgotten memory
feel new again
suddenly the sumptuous skin is right there beside you
fingers pressed lightly
on your palm
and you can barely stand to
breathe in
because once your nostrils fill with the smell
of unmasked bodies
fermented in the sun
unselfconsciously aromatic
the scent which only
one person each
can emit
you may never want to breathe out again
bitterness boils...
like yesterday's
emitting a ceremonial light cast just the right way
to make a long forgotten memory
feel new again
suddenly the sumptuous skin is right there beside you
fingers pressed lightly
on your palm
and you can barely stand to
breathe in
because once your nostrils fill with the smell
of unmasked bodies
fermented in the sun
unselfconsciously aromatic
the scent which only
one person each
can emit
you may never want to breathe out again
bitterness boils...
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I to i
I smoked for four years
i quit for eight months
I started again
i wondered why and when it would end
I was happy to be able to relate to my friends again
i was distraught for bullying my body
I was having a hard time letting go
i was terrified of what would happen if I didn't
I kept asserting dominance
i was far more passive but i wanted a chance to speak
I could tell I was dying and I was afraid
i was gentle and let the process happen slowly
I put up a fight
I refused to back down
but I was growing weaker
...
i quit for eight months
I started again
i wondered why and when it would end
I was happy to be able to relate to my friends again
i was distraught for bullying my body
I was having a hard time letting go
i was terrified of what would happen if I didn't
I kept asserting dominance
i was far more passive but i wanted a chance to speak
I could tell I was dying and I was afraid
i was gentle and let the process happen slowly
I put up a fight
I refused to back down
but I was growing weaker
...
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i do
the veils flew violently down and in the stark contrast of being surrounded by nothing but myself i finally found peace. searching for love so many places outside of myself i always met with the end of lust or splendor or blissful moments of clandestine affairs maybe never meant for me. then one day i decided to marry myself. i decided that everything i craved when i thought someone else could complete me was buried in a place i had yet to explore deep inside. my wedding gift to myself was a shovel. what i've uprooted since was not always pleasant but it was always pleasing. striving to be a...
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Completely Self Centered
i could not tell you exactly where i am going anymore
the magnetism stems
from trembling steps
stumbled forward
life times ago
the urgency is unbearable
but the only way to get there
is one step at a time
i finally have a map made of mysterious symbols
yet i trust it more
than every moment and memory
combined
i am radiating orange
and i know
this means nothing good
for old notions
of dependence
romantics
and masturbation
what would you be willing
to give up
to help heal the world
if...
the magnetism stems
from trembling steps
stumbled forward
life times ago
the urgency is unbearable
but the only way to get there
is one step at a time
i finally have a map made of mysterious symbols
yet i trust it more
than every moment and memory
combined
i am radiating orange
and i know
this means nothing good
for old notions
of dependence
romantics
and masturbation
what would you be willing
to give up
to help heal the world
if...
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going nowhere
i have recently discovered that i could work very hard or very little and it would ultimately be just the same. i could be notorious infamous or celebrated. i could be hated ostracized or alone. i could be friends with everyone or no one. i could write books or write with chalk on sidewalks or write ballads in my head and never tell a single soul. i could get a sex change or be asexual or bisexual or pansexual or celibate. i could have one career my whole life or be a jack of all trades and a king of none or i could be homeless. i could get married and i could get divorced. i could go to jail...
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a date with myself
i despise people who say they are lonely. i am jealous of them.
how do they do it? i have been searching for a way to be alone
for quite some time. just one full day or even half a moment to
feel that it is only my resonant frequency being picked
up on the line. lonely. sounds like such a luxury. everywhere i
turn there is a vibe there is a lingering there is a grasping
and complete denial of psychological autonomy. we hold each
other captive with what we wish we could feel and in some ways
do; but only through the most passive aggressive experience of...
how do they do it? i have been searching for a way to be alone
for quite some time. just one full day or even half a moment to
feel that it is only my resonant frequency being picked
up on the line. lonely. sounds like such a luxury. everywhere i
turn there is a vibe there is a lingering there is a grasping
and complete denial of psychological autonomy. we hold each
other captive with what we wish we could feel and in some ways
do; but only through the most passive aggressive experience of...
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the turn around
sacrifices which are not a trouble to make
troubles which are a pleasure to endure
endurance which comes from patience
patience which come from knowing
without knowing
that everything is headed my way
everything is already ok
and that
every
single
day
is the best day of my life
troubles which are a pleasure to endure
endurance which comes from patience
patience which come from knowing
without knowing
that everything is headed my way
everything is already ok
and that
every
single
day
is the best day of my life
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to master mind
an intimate appointment with fate
once toiled under
i now deem
destiny dead
a master of my motives
i can sense the lightness
leaking in
through fissures
once thought fatal
healing heeds an
early warning
scars
can simplify
the process
of Remembering
do not be afraid
to fall
do not fall into error
of lack
or predetermined purpose
you choose
and if you do not choose
you lose
and if you want to change
you will
and if you think you can't
you're right
...
once toiled under
i now deem
destiny dead
a master of my motives
i can sense the lightness
leaking in
through fissures
once thought fatal
healing heeds an
early warning
scars
can simplify
the process
of Remembering
do not be afraid
to fall
do not fall into error
of lack
or predetermined purpose
you choose
and if you do not choose
you lose
and if you want to change
you will
and if you think you can't
you're right
...
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Sole to Soul
If you want your soul to be grounded put your soles on the
ground. It can remind you of many important things. After the
long months of winter boots and wool socks there is an immense
sigh of relief from each of your toes as they wriggle freely in
the open air. You suddenly notice every step again. When you
walk in the shade the coolness caresses your pads and when you
leap onto searing concrete it brings quickness to each step.
You begin to step lighter in general because even the smallest
pebble causes pressure. With sensitivity and awareness you ...
ground. It can remind you of many important things. After the
long months of winter boots and wool socks there is an immense
sigh of relief from each of your toes as they wriggle freely in
the open air. You suddenly notice every step again. When you
walk in the shade the coolness caresses your pads and when you
leap onto searing concrete it brings quickness to each step.
You begin to step lighter in general because even the smallest
pebble causes pressure. With sensitivity and awareness you ...
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when I becomes i
regressing through progression gives an odd sensation
of deja vu
that has taken a life time
to snap out of
that moment you realize
everything led up to a moment
already past
and that everything you planned for
in the future
never happens
that the world in-between
waiting
and figuring out
is all we have
to look forward to
and that the only way
you might win
is if you play
by yourself
i am heart broken
and i see no reason
not to be
there was no...
of deja vu
that has taken a life time
to snap out of
that moment you realize
everything led up to a moment
already past
and that everything you planned for
in the future
never happens
that the world in-between
waiting
and figuring out
is all we have
to look forward to
and that the only way
you might win
is if you play
by yourself
i am heart broken
and i see no reason
not to be
there was no...
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A long circular question leading nowhere
what does life contain when you are empty? what is the
difference between an emptiness that aches and an emptiness that
vibrates? when you find yourself at the edge are you afraid?
does the fear stop you from diving in? does hesitation make you
fall back? is falling back safer than falling forward? is there
danger in safety? when our ego truly dies do we keep living?
when 'I' becomes 'i' has it died? should it or could it be we?
is abandoning our attachment to freedom the only way out? is it
time for me to commit to something bigger? how will i know...
difference between an emptiness that aches and an emptiness that
vibrates? when you find yourself at the edge are you afraid?
does the fear stop you from diving in? does hesitation make you
fall back? is falling back safer than falling forward? is there
danger in safety? when our ego truly dies do we keep living?
when 'I' becomes 'i' has it died? should it or could it be we?
is abandoning our attachment to freedom the only way out? is it
time for me to commit to something bigger? how will i know...
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