Submissions by nevergiveup248
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
From an Old Journal(July 20, 2006)
I don't know whats going on, my life's a mess, I don't know if I can deal with all this stress. Its hitting me hard, coming at me all at once, I don't have a choice, I'm the class dunce. A mixture of family, a tad bit of friends, a sprinkle of boys and things I should never do again. Drinkings a problem I'm well aware, its my life I'm playing with, this truth or dare. Why do I do this just put myself down, when all I want is a boyfriend around. I'm tired as hell and I need to take a shower because I am starting to smell. Ha ha. I had to throw something funny in there, because this stress I...
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From an Old Journal(July 14, 2006)
Its one a.m. and I'm just waiting, for my mind to start invading, the reality I live in, which is when I start to give in. Into my thoughts as I explore, the world that I can no longer ignore. Just writing things on my mind, but I think it's time. Do I even have the spine for this? To talk shit then throw up my fists, and hopefully win! For I have a reputation to maintain, it's not your turn to gain the respect you will never deserve because I'm living and I have learned, that the reason I fight is not to spite but to show you that you are not what you think. A bad ass? Ya right! That is the...
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From an Old Journal(April 10, 2006)
Why do I hang out with people who don't even really like me?
I don't know what to do I am stuck in the middle and the walls are closing in I am losing my breath gasping for air but no one is coming in I just want this to end soon as possible and be with the people who really care about me instead of the ones who just pretend
I don't know what to do I am stuck in the middle and the walls are closing in I am losing my breath gasping for air but no one is coming in I just want this to end soon as possible and be with the people who really care about me instead of the ones who just pretend
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From an Old Journal(Oct. 8, 2005)
Why do you yell and scream at me?
When you do this it does not seem to be like you truly love me.
Then why do you say it when it's just us two?
Can you not say it around your friends?
Am I an embarrassment to you?!
Well if that's how you feel, then fine, let it be, but now I can see you could never truly love me.
When you do this it does not seem to be like you truly love me.
Then why do you say it when it's just us two?
Can you not say it around your friends?
Am I an embarrassment to you?!
Well if that's how you feel, then fine, let it be, but now I can see you could never truly love me.
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Something, Just Writing
Here it is
a memory
thought of you
Things I know
some we have seen
felt
An electric pulse radiating throughout my body
others see it too
Running deep
You know it too
How to write what I want to say
yet
not writing it
It is all in how you read
listen
and I know you do
so here I am
reaching out too.
ILJC
12-5-13
a memory
thought of you
Things I know
some we have seen
felt
An electric pulse radiating throughout my body
others see it too
Running deep
You know it too
How to write what I want to say
yet
not writing it
It is all in how you read
listen
and I know you do
so here I am
reaching out too.
ILJC
12-5-13
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Untitled
While he sits and waits and ponders his thoughts,
he thinks about the freedom he once sought.
While he is thinking in his cold and lonely cell,
he wished he were not where he is
which is hell.
When he looks up at the only picture that gave him faith,
he ripped it off the wall and started to shake.
Where was God then,
he was beginning to say,
as he went to the cell window and looked towards the bay.
Where was God when I needed him most,
delivering that poor girls body down at the coast.
Where was God when I was put to trial,
when we knew...
he thinks about the freedom he once sought.
While he is thinking in his cold and lonely cell,
he wished he were not where he is
which is hell.
When he looks up at the only picture that gave him faith,
he ripped it off the wall and started to shake.
Where was God then,
he was beginning to say,
as he went to the cell window and looked towards the bay.
Where was God when I needed him most,
delivering that poor girls body down at the coast.
Where was God when I was put to trial,
when we knew...
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Write Before Bed
Off the top of my head
before I feel the need
to slowly heed
the longing call of my bed.
A book to read
homework to do
thoughts on my mind
yet not enough time.
It starts all over tomorrow
dark and early around five
sometimes I think that is what plays into drinking
the one thing that seems to help me feel alive.
But that is all over now
hopefully
fingers crossed
if I do not get it together this time
my future may surely be lost.
I can meditate
and pray
wish
and hope
to continue on any...
before I feel the need
to slowly heed
the longing call of my bed.
A book to read
homework to do
thoughts on my mind
yet not enough time.
It starts all over tomorrow
dark and early around five
sometimes I think that is what plays into drinking
the one thing that seems to help me feel alive.
But that is all over now
hopefully
fingers crossed
if I do not get it together this time
my future may surely be lost.
I can meditate
and pray
wish
and hope
to continue on any...
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Yet Another Dream of You
A dream
about you and I.
Has me questioning,
the signs.
Wondering why-Is it true?
Am I meant to be with you,
or am I misunderstanding?
Just looking to where
this path
may have me landing.
ILJC
8-29-13
about you and I.
Has me questioning,
the signs.
Wondering why-Is it true?
Am I meant to be with you,
or am I misunderstanding?
Just looking to where
this path
may have me landing.
ILJC
8-29-13
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Angry at myself
Used and abused
it tends to happen all the time
I put fake love, lust
on a pedestal of unknown
trust
I have a wall around my heart
I cause my own pain
One thing you will soon find out
you will never be hearing from me again.
ILJC
it tends to happen all the time
I put fake love, lust
on a pedestal of unknown
trust
I have a wall around my heart
I cause my own pain
One thing you will soon find out
you will never be hearing from me again.
ILJC
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Holding On 2 U
This confusion continues to eat at me.
Should I let go?
Or continue believing...
You are no longer constantly on my mind
but hanging in there none the less.
I am working on me right now
to prove to myself that I deserve the best.
Whatever you send out is what you receive
I can no longer where my heart on my sleeve.
I try to move on, to have nothing left of you
but I am unable to- my heart,body,soul,
are all askew.
So just one day at a time
and the future will see
just what...
Should I let go?
Or continue believing...
You are no longer constantly on my mind
but hanging in there none the less.
I am working on me right now
to prove to myself that I deserve the best.
Whatever you send out is what you receive
I can no longer where my heart on my sleeve.
I try to move on, to have nothing left of you
but I am unable to- my heart,body,soul,
are all askew.
So just one day at a time
and the future will see
just what...
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My Morning Sun
Light fog, early dew
lay upon the plants
Freshness,
morning anew
Semi-hot coffee,
bittersweet
Nature singing,
coming awake
Warm sensation,
golden rays in the sky
You woke the world
with a Happy Hi!
9-13-12
ILJC
lay upon the plants
Freshness,
morning anew
Semi-hot coffee,
bittersweet
Nature singing,
coming awake
Warm sensation,
golden rays in the sky
You woke the world
with a Happy Hi!
9-13-12
ILJC
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Jessica E.M.
I remember when you were just a baby,
big blue eyes, blonde hair,
you are turning into a lovely lady.
Full of emotion, such a big heart,
you have been that way from the start.
I reminisce on all the times we have had,
thankfully more good than bad.
To think that there is something bothering you,
makes me terribly sad.
All I want to do is help, be there to listen.
Remember the old times?
All of us fishin?
Though we can not go back to the past,
continuously heading on to the future.
It is going so fast, I can not afford to lose here....
big blue eyes, blonde hair,
you are turning into a lovely lady.
Full of emotion, such a big heart,
you have been that way from the start.
I reminisce on all the times we have had,
thankfully more good than bad.
To think that there is something bothering you,
makes me terribly sad.
All I want to do is help, be there to listen.
Remember the old times?
All of us fishin?
Though we can not go back to the past,
continuously heading on to the future.
It is going so fast, I can not afford to lose here....
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