Submissions by mcohen96

i watch the blood pour from my arms
as every slice cuts deeper and deeper
my mind is slowly wasting away
hoping and hoping to ease the pain
but never seems to cut deep enough
feelings and emotions run through my mind
wishing but not wishing for death
so these horizontal lines keep me alive
physically
but these horizontal lines keep me dead
mentally
as my scars fade and renew over time
the feeling i get when i take a blade to my skin
creating an unusual form of art
is a bittersweet sensation
that i will never forget

i feel so much sometimes
its like a waterfall through my mind
just pouring down with emotions
my soul is so deep
these emotions drown me
my mind, so weak
they take me over
there's no stopping once they start
sadness hits me like a tidal wave
anger streams through my veins like heroine
darkness flows throughout my whole body
overflowing with teardrops leaking from my eyes
my deepness is too heavy
i cannot keep it in any longer
because i feel so much sometimes

i'm drowning in a sea of sadness
this deep mind is slowly killing me
i can't control these thoughts
they torture me
they tell me i'm worthless
they tell me i'm ugly and i'll never be good enough
they fuck with my emotions
i try to swim away when they start
but they are too strong, too powerful
they suck me in their current
and you know the saddest part?
i've started believing them
so i guess i've drowned
again...

it was the zenith of my darkness
i could sense the end was near
my rhapsodic mind was suffuse
the sonorous voices in my head were inexorable
dissembling me to believe horrible things
my demure personality showed felicity
but on the inside i was disintegrating
i couldn't contain my chrysalis anymore
i finally found a panacea , in which i thought
but my attempt failed bitter sweetly,
and life continued on....