Submissions by madi_the_dreamer
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm not educated in writing but I read a lot of books and pick up a lot of words. I write what I or what I see others are feeling. Please enjoy and comment and whatever else !
Resolution
Yes its been a journey here
and it's one that I often feared
I dreamt of the pain fading away
but never believed it would be today
It was when you walked away
that I realized you couldn't stay
Yes, it hurt more than life itself
but it was then that I became myself
Finally after years of agony
I opened my eyes and was surprised to see
The nothing that fled from me
the moment you set me free
Thank you for leaving
Thank you for peace
and it's one that I often feared
I dreamt of the pain fading away
but never believed it would be today
It was when you walked away
that I realized you couldn't stay
Yes, it hurt more than life itself
but it was then that I became myself
Finally after years of agony
I opened my eyes and was surprised to see
The nothing that fled from me
the moment you set me free
Thank you for leaving
Thank you for peace
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Freedom
I always think of worries and strife
Never have I pondered a better life
But it seems as though it was hidden away
In the shadows lost behind a cloud of grey
Good days have come sooner than thought
Before this joy I was overwrought
Caught off guard by the mercies of beauty
Cut away from misery and cruelty
And maybe its a phase now gone
Or possibly ended before it began
But how could I explain this utter relief
The pain stolen away by a misguided thief
No, this may not last forever
But I'll keep it with me through every...
Never have I pondered a better life
But it seems as though it was hidden away
In the shadows lost behind a cloud of grey
Good days have come sooner than thought
Before this joy I was overwrought
Caught off guard by the mercies of beauty
Cut away from misery and cruelty
And maybe its a phase now gone
Or possibly ended before it began
But how could I explain this utter relief
The pain stolen away by a misguided thief
No, this may not last forever
But I'll keep it with me through every...
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Listen
Do you hear it?
The sound of my heart breaking
The thoughts circling my soul
The screams that tear my flesh but never come out
Do you hear it?
The echoes of yesterday
The whisper of a tomorrow that will never come
The audible desire of today ending
Do you hear it?
My frail voice a soft lie
My rehearsed speeches to fake the day away
My silence
Of course you don't
No one ever will
But that's okay
I'm comfortable in the shadows of my heart
The sound of my heart breaking
The thoughts circling my soul
The screams that tear my flesh but never come out
Do you hear it?
The echoes of yesterday
The whisper of a tomorrow that will never come
The audible desire of today ending
Do you hear it?
My frail voice a soft lie
My rehearsed speeches to fake the day away
My silence
Of course you don't
No one ever will
But that's okay
I'm comfortable in the shadows of my heart
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Drowning If Only
I find myself searching for a reason to die
Drowning in depression but someone keeps bringing me air
Give me a chance to let go and be free
Let me sink deeper into the darkness of me
Shaking, and yet I'm not gone
Effortlessly, dreadfully continuing on
I can't explain why happiness hurts
Every smile needs a reason to convert
Why can't I breathe when I'm contented
Nothing good inside of me is intended
I long for old facial pretense
Because at least back then it all made sense
I miss my damaged impaired heart
From this flesh I...
Drowning in depression but someone keeps bringing me air
Give me a chance to let go and be free
Let me sink deeper into the darkness of me
Shaking, and yet I'm not gone
Effortlessly, dreadfully continuing on
I can't explain why happiness hurts
Every smile needs a reason to convert
Why can't I breathe when I'm contented
Nothing good inside of me is intended
I long for old facial pretense
Because at least back then it all made sense
I miss my damaged impaired heart
From this flesh I...
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Less
What day is it?
When did it come to this?
How does a person shrivil to dust?
When will the word have had enough?
When will the deception of my ingenuine smile,
Be rid of this endless darkness and bile?
When will this empty nothing that is me,
Be left alone to rest in peace?
No one seems to worry about a statue
Because it does nothing but stare back at you
There is no connection to this earth
Nothing but expended self worth
I hear a whisper escape my lips
Goodbye to rehearsed lines and scripts
Softer, the remnants vanish...
When did it come to this?
How does a person shrivil to dust?
When will the word have had enough?
When will the deception of my ingenuine smile,
Be rid of this endless darkness and bile?
When will this empty nothing that is me,
Be left alone to rest in peace?
No one seems to worry about a statue
Because it does nothing but stare back at you
There is no connection to this earth
Nothing but expended self worth
I hear a whisper escape my lips
Goodbye to rehearsed lines and scripts
Softer, the remnants vanish...
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Useless
I feel nothing
Not the sting of the cutting
Or even the emptiness within
The tears that trickle and surrender off my chin
I no longer feel
As though nothing in this life is real
I stare blankly into the face of death
And he steals me away with a last placid breath
Death is not unlike life
The same unmoving still strife
Here no one takes a second glance
At least in life I had a chance
Or did I?
Because they all knew but never asked why
How could such a frail girl
Feel the weight and pressure of the entire world
...
Not the sting of the cutting
Or even the emptiness within
The tears that trickle and surrender off my chin
I no longer feel
As though nothing in this life is real
I stare blankly into the face of death
And he steals me away with a last placid breath
Death is not unlike life
The same unmoving still strife
Here no one takes a second glance
At least in life I had a chance
Or did I?
Because they all knew but never asked why
How could such a frail girl
Feel the weight and pressure of the entire world
...
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In honor of valentines day
Love is in the air
My heart is broken and impaired
Unfixable and lonely
The one and only
I envision something like love
An emotion I am unworthy of
Smiles, that's not me
It never could be
Every year I feel the same
A dejected feeling I never overcame
I have never been inclined to adjudicate
This "Holiday" is cramped and agglutinated
How could I love another if I can't love myself
I resemble an old book on a dusty shelf
I spend the day reprimanding the radio songs
I hold myself in the corner thinking of my...
My heart is broken and impaired
Unfixable and lonely
The one and only
I envision something like love
An emotion I am unworthy of
Smiles, that's not me
It never could be
Every year I feel the same
A dejected feeling I never overcame
I have never been inclined to adjudicate
This "Holiday" is cramped and agglutinated
How could I love another if I can't love myself
I resemble an old book on a dusty shelf
I spend the day reprimanding the radio songs
I hold myself in the corner thinking of my...
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Silence
As the night grew quieter so did her voice
Pardoned by a thousand pieces of choice
Arise and be judged by her peers
Or lay awake dreaming her fears
Each day more silent than the last
Tongue tediously but indisputably engrossed in a cast
Smiles to go around so she wouldn't need to explain
The unceasing nail biting pain
She hid herself behind a wall of "I'm just tired"
Walking from class to class perfectly wired
A little makeup to hide the fallen tears
But she cant hide from the incriminating mirrors
She whispers help in...
Pardoned by a thousand pieces of choice
Arise and be judged by her peers
Or lay awake dreaming her fears
Each day more silent than the last
Tongue tediously but indisputably engrossed in a cast
Smiles to go around so she wouldn't need to explain
The unceasing nail biting pain
She hid herself behind a wall of "I'm just tired"
Walking from class to class perfectly wired
A little makeup to hide the fallen tears
But she cant hide from the incriminating mirrors
She whispers help in...
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For the girl who spoke
She graced the world with perfection
Sliding by without suspicion
No one seemed to notice or care
That the girls life was bare
Depression hides behind an iron mask
In order to stay alive, you have to be fast
But she didn't know the trick of the game
Or the decaying loneliness behind the fame
She has a legion of friends by her side
None of which know the truth behind
She's not exactly one of them
Unknowingly, by herself she'd fend
Cruel fate tears her apart
She doesn't even know she's a work of art
She doesn't care for the...
Sliding by without suspicion
No one seemed to notice or care
That the girls life was bare
Depression hides behind an iron mask
In order to stay alive, you have to be fast
But she didn't know the trick of the game
Or the decaying loneliness behind the fame
She has a legion of friends by her side
None of which know the truth behind
She's not exactly one of them
Unknowingly, by herself she'd fend
Cruel fate tears her apart
She doesn't even know she's a work of art
She doesn't care for the...
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5 Comments
Still
Waiting
For someone to come
A chivalrous hero
A rescuer or sorts
Nothing
But the silent beat of my heart
No one comes
Not like I expected them too
Darkness
It fills every corner
Every craves
Each and every moment
Stillness
As I lye awake
Waiting for nothing
All the while feeling the pain
Stinging
The cuts are still bleeding
Funny that they would
The pain makes it hurt less
Irony
That is all my life is
All an ironic joke
A girl with nothing feels everything
Better...
For someone to come
A chivalrous hero
A rescuer or sorts
Nothing
But the silent beat of my heart
No one comes
Not like I expected them too
Darkness
It fills every corner
Every craves
Each and every moment
Stillness
As I lye awake
Waiting for nothing
All the while feeling the pain
Stinging
The cuts are still bleeding
Funny that they would
The pain makes it hurt less
Irony
That is all my life is
All an ironic joke
A girl with nothing feels everything
Better...
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Her mirror
I look in the mirror but I what do I see
There is nothing left but a fragment of me
There is nothing but a disregarded face
An empty nothing filled with regret and disgrace
How long has it been since I smiled
I know it must have been quite a while
Ever since I took a wrong turn down the path of life
Since then it's been endless battles and strife
Why I continue looking I cant quite figure
Something of me must still linger
But she's buried down beneath the scars and lies
Tattered and dismayed by everyone who gave up and said their goodbyes...
There is nothing left but a fragment of me
There is nothing but a disregarded face
An empty nothing filled with regret and disgrace
How long has it been since I smiled
I know it must have been quite a while
Ever since I took a wrong turn down the path of life
Since then it's been endless battles and strife
Why I continue looking I cant quite figure
Something of me must still linger
But she's buried down beneath the scars and lies
Tattered and dismayed by everyone who gave up and said their goodbyes...
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Life story
(this is more of me than anything you will read of my work...which is why it isn't as great of a read)
Two parents who's love was great
Three children who then divorced their fate
Man alone with no one to hold
Married again, a woman even more cold
Constantly running from spouses
Mother moved us in and out of houses
Then that cold shell of a woman who married dad
Everyday made us wish she never had
With no home to call my own
I wandered feeling ugly and alone
No friends to help me through
No one to tell me my thought were untrue...
Two parents who's love was great
Three children who then divorced their fate
Man alone with no one to hold
Married again, a woman even more cold
Constantly running from spouses
Mother moved us in and out of houses
Then that cold shell of a woman who married dad
Everyday made us wish she never had
With no home to call my own
I wandered feeling ugly and alone
No friends to help me through
No one to tell me my thought were untrue...
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2 Comments
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