Submissions by junkhead169

Your layers are many
Your mood swings are plenty
Your faces contrary
Your compassion is empty

Your face in the mirror
Self anger stares back
Boiling wrath simmer
Soon another attack

Friends are like minded
The network complete
A mutual clique blinded
Apology considered defeat

Your sickness grew early
In your formative years
Your moods always surly
To supress inner fears

So now you are older
A mother and wife
Your arrogance bolder
Control everyone's life

I tried to appease you
You saw...

When dawn breaks, the fearful mental tsunami awakes
Like a masterpiece re-written, but a poor remake
Turning light to grey - I am such easy prey
Scripted kryptonite tablets, to start the day

My fantasy world, my enemy within
My dark mind plays on its puppet string
Like a sledgehammer strike, the task completed
My goals depleted, minimized, deleted

Try to keep up with life's Olympian demands
Retreat, give up, tomorrow, my demon commands
Compare myself to others, the road to hell
To the outside world, I must appear well

Stop the planet - I want to get off
It's time to gorge - from the junkies trough
I want to stop feeling - anything at all
Enter my spiral - the inevitable fall
I know where I'm going - I've travelled before
Like the frantic alky - to the liquor store
I take the first line - I start to smile
Lying is easy - So is denial
I blame the whole world - for my chosen state
But my actions are mine - I choose my fate
I share nothing with no-one - my works are mine
I delude myself - this is the last time
I lie to my family - I lie to myself
I care for...

Planet madness orbited my psyche
Hitching a ride after a gruelling hike
Self deluding confessions omitting no light
Eclipsing all reason - banished from sight
I listen, I reason, I pretend that I care
Knowing deep down his humility is bare
Trapped in his prison by his selfish past
Who bears the brunt of his film noir cast
Do I pray for this madman in his twilight zone
No, I wish he would die and leave me alone